As of right now I am not going to write a full blog because I am still really sick but as soon as I soon as I get better I will return with full blogs, which will be very soon....
Peace Out!
Friday, October 31, 2008
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
Questions?/A Little Meltdown
I have failed to write a Blog all weekend, mainly because I was either not at my house or because I was super tired and didn't feel like writing one.
Now I know in previous posts I have talked about me not looking to far into the future and trying to take my life one day at a time. But as I sit at my house alone I can't help but ponder what is in store for me in the coming year, I am not trying to make plans but simply run all the different possibilities that my life can go through my head. Will I be moved out if this house by the beginning of next year? If not, then how long will it possibly be before we [Jeremy, Eric and I] get our shit together and be absolutely ready to move out? Will I be able to handle it not just financially but mentally and emotionally? What do I need to do to get ready to support myself? I could keep going and going with questions that I constantly ask myself. On my days off with no money that is my hobby, ask my self questions and come up with multiple scenarios whether it be positive or negative(yea I know what a sad hobby) but this coming Friday I will get my first "real" paycheck and again I find myself questioning. After gas money what do I have left? How much do I need to put away towards Black Friday? Should I use some of this money to start socializing again/have fun? If I use up this paycheck will I have enough money for Black Friday with whatever paychecks I will receive between now and then? So I constantly am trying to figure out the best possible outcome for myself(oh shit that would be considered planning ahead) screw it I can't live day by day that's not the kind of person that I am. I have to completely think every decision through(I guess it would take me forever to play Fable 2) I have to think about every possible outcome and the consequences that would follow. When I go into a situation I love already knowing what I need to do for the best result(I think that is why I never acted on my hatred towards Michael Rush, because I thought about what would happen if I in fact did act on my gut instincts[which was to kill him]) With so many situations to think about coming up in the next few months, I have been going crazy thinking about what I need to do to be happy with my life.
Going back to our possible moving out, this weekend I realized something we are a lot farther from moving out than we thought again not financially but mentally and emotionally. The three of us are very different and we are all at different stages. Eric- has a job and has had it awhile so he actually has money saved up, but I feel that he really doesn't care if he moves out or not because he has a pretty easy life as of right now. From what I have seen he has a great relationship with his parents and usually does or gets pretty much what he wants, overall he is very content with his situation in life. Jeremy- used to be able to get what he wanted but now that the economy has taken a dive and his dad is being a JEW(about his money) and the fact that he doesn't have a "real" job stacked on top of crushing bills, Jeremy wants to get out of his current situation more than I do. With a decaying relationship with his dad and a slowly growing relationship with his mom he wants to get out but would not be able to support himself with what he makes cleaning with his mom alone. Me- now it is my turn to analyze myself and I will try to be bias. So my situation is kind of in the middle of the previous two, I have been at my job for about two and a half weeks and so far has only received $85 so far but I will be getting increasingly bigger paychecks the further I get into season. Now I do not have a really good relationship with my parents especially of late because they have technically stole $3,000 from me. On the outside it would seem everything is alright but I put on a rouge to make it easier to live here for as long as I have to, if I were to call them out and start telling them how I honestly feel than I suspect it would be an even greater hell to live in than it is now. But I truly don't have a person that I can honestly talk to about anything I feel I must always keep stuff in no matter who I am talking to. I don't know I just find so much comfort in keeping to myself, now don't get me wrong I absolutely love hanging out with true friends like Jeremy and Chris and Eric. I almost feel as if I am destined to be alone and it sucks so bad cause though I find comfort in myself I don't believe that I could be alone my whole life. I always think about will I find that someone that I can truly love and truly love me in return, but I also think about who could honestly love me I mean seriously I can't see myself with a girlfriend or wife. I disgust myself. I have actually cried myself to sleep thinking about all this stuff, I so desperately want change but to do it I need to get out of this house, being in this house and this family holds me down and makes me keep living this horrible life that I don't wanna live, that's why I need to get out of here and be the person that I wanna be I am tired of living this lie of a life with my "family". Seriously Fuck this life. Fuck this family. Fuck this house. Fuck my existence in this world. It is not like anyone honestly would know I was gone except maybe my close friends, I know my family could care less. I don't want to do this anymore I don't want to act on a daily basis. I don't want to act like I care anymore. I don't even want to finish this blog anymore.......
Fuck this shit I need a way out, I need to get out of this house and away from this family I cant fucking take this anymore. I am doomed to loneliness, I don't know what to do anymore I hate that I have to continue this shitty life. And now I fear that I will be trapped in it indefinitely. Once I leave I am never ever coming back whatever fuck this shit
Fuck Everyone!
Now I know in previous posts I have talked about me not looking to far into the future and trying to take my life one day at a time. But as I sit at my house alone I can't help but ponder what is in store for me in the coming year, I am not trying to make plans but simply run all the different possibilities that my life can go through my head. Will I be moved out if this house by the beginning of next year? If not, then how long will it possibly be before we [Jeremy, Eric and I] get our shit together and be absolutely ready to move out? Will I be able to handle it not just financially but mentally and emotionally? What do I need to do to get ready to support myself? I could keep going and going with questions that I constantly ask myself. On my days off with no money that is my hobby, ask my self questions and come up with multiple scenarios whether it be positive or negative(yea I know what a sad hobby) but this coming Friday I will get my first "real" paycheck and again I find myself questioning. After gas money what do I have left? How much do I need to put away towards Black Friday? Should I use some of this money to start socializing again/have fun? If I use up this paycheck will I have enough money for Black Friday with whatever paychecks I will receive between now and then? So I constantly am trying to figure out the best possible outcome for myself(oh shit that would be considered planning ahead) screw it I can't live day by day that's not the kind of person that I am. I have to completely think every decision through(I guess it would take me forever to play Fable 2) I have to think about every possible outcome and the consequences that would follow. When I go into a situation I love already knowing what I need to do for the best result(I think that is why I never acted on my hatred towards Michael Rush, because I thought about what would happen if I in fact did act on my gut instincts[which was to kill him]) With so many situations to think about coming up in the next few months, I have been going crazy thinking about what I need to do to be happy with my life.
Going back to our possible moving out, this weekend I realized something we are a lot farther from moving out than we thought again not financially but mentally and emotionally. The three of us are very different and we are all at different stages. Eric- has a job and has had it awhile so he actually has money saved up, but I feel that he really doesn't care if he moves out or not because he has a pretty easy life as of right now. From what I have seen he has a great relationship with his parents and usually does or gets pretty much what he wants, overall he is very content with his situation in life. Jeremy- used to be able to get what he wanted but now that the economy has taken a dive and his dad is being a JEW(about his money) and the fact that he doesn't have a "real" job stacked on top of crushing bills, Jeremy wants to get out of his current situation more than I do. With a decaying relationship with his dad and a slowly growing relationship with his mom he wants to get out but would not be able to support himself with what he makes cleaning with his mom alone. Me- now it is my turn to analyze myself and I will try to be bias. So my situation is kind of in the middle of the previous two, I have been at my job for about two and a half weeks and so far has only received $85 so far but I will be getting increasingly bigger paychecks the further I get into season. Now I do not have a really good relationship with my parents especially of late because they have technically stole $3,000 from me. On the outside it would seem everything is alright but I put on a rouge to make it easier to live here for as long as I have to, if I were to call them out and start telling them how I honestly feel than I suspect it would be an even greater hell to live in than it is now. But I truly don't have a person that I can honestly talk to about anything I feel I must always keep stuff in no matter who I am talking to. I don't know I just find so much comfort in keeping to myself, now don't get me wrong I absolutely love hanging out with true friends like Jeremy and Chris and Eric. I almost feel as if I am destined to be alone and it sucks so bad cause though I find comfort in myself I don't believe that I could be alone my whole life. I always think about will I find that someone that I can truly love and truly love me in return, but I also think about who could honestly love me I mean seriously I can't see myself with a girlfriend or wife. I disgust myself. I have actually cried myself to sleep thinking about all this stuff, I so desperately want change but to do it I need to get out of this house, being in this house and this family holds me down and makes me keep living this horrible life that I don't wanna live, that's why I need to get out of here and be the person that I wanna be I am tired of living this lie of a life with my "family". Seriously Fuck this life. Fuck this family. Fuck this house. Fuck my existence in this world. It is not like anyone honestly would know I was gone except maybe my close friends, I know my family could care less. I don't want to do this anymore I don't want to act on a daily basis. I don't want to act like I care anymore. I don't even want to finish this blog anymore.......
I lie here alone and wonder why
That I come alive, just before I have to hide.
Because I believe I'm losing my nerve
But could I ever do better than this
Because all I ever wanted was a place to call my home
To shelter me when I am there and to miss me when I'm gone
All I ever wanted was a place to call my own
Where stars will dance and sun still shines and the storms feel free to roam
If there's a way to a remedy then lead me straight to it
If there's a path or a door I missed , then show me now, show me this
Fuck this shit I need a way out, I need to get out of this house and away from this family I cant fucking take this anymore. I am doomed to loneliness, I don't know what to do anymore I hate that I have to continue this shitty life. And now I fear that I will be trapped in it indefinitely. Once I leave I am never ever coming back whatever fuck this shit
Fuck Everyone!
Friday, October 24, 2008
Super Sleepy/The List
So tonight I am really Fucking tired and I am not gonna talk...er type that much tonight. So I am introducing the list blog, it is a step below the lightning blog basically I am just gonna kinda list the things that have happen the past few days and not go into much detail. At least you can get some kind of idea about the past few days of my life.
Wednesday October 22, 2008
It was my day off so during the day I did pretty much nothing except the usual surfing the internet, catching up on videos, and my daily routine. Since I didn't have to work that night I thought I would go with my sister to Estero High's Nite Trax. It was actually really good and I am glad I went. I also yelled out some things through out, like when all the class start chanting their class I started chanting G-R-A-D-U-A-T-E-D.Also after the host went through all the classes and asked them to cheer I yelled out CLASS OF 08!!!! I was expecting some kind of response whether it be boo's or cheers from other graduates that were there but mostly all I heard was *crickets*. And lastly Mrs. Reynolds was one of the hosts and everyone kept screaming about how they love Mrs. Reynolds. So close to the end I got into a screaming match with I think Tyler Bourke(thats who it sounded like) about who loved Mrs. Reynolds more. After that we went to T.B. and then home.
Thursday October 23, 2008
I didn't get out of bed until close to 1p.m. and didn't do much after that except get ready to go to work at 4:30. Work was boring but when I got home I got a call from Eric and it is usually a toss up whether it is gonna be a good call or a call where your like I shouldn't have picked that up.(just kidding) but anyway he asked if I wanted to go over to his house so we could all go to Best Buy tomorrow and play some GHWorld Tour.
Friday October 24, 2008
I am getting even more tired as I go along so all we did today was got up and went to play some Guitar Hero than I went home rested a little bit and went to work. So I really need to go to bed so that tomorrow night I can write a real blog even though this was longer than expected so until tomorrow night....
Peace Out!
Wednesday October 22, 2008
It was my day off so during the day I did pretty much nothing except the usual surfing the internet, catching up on videos, and my daily routine. Since I didn't have to work that night I thought I would go with my sister to Estero High's Nite Trax. It was actually really good and I am glad I went. I also yelled out some things through out, like when all the class start chanting their class I started chanting G-R-A-D-U-A-T-E-D.Also after the host went through all the classes and asked them to cheer I yelled out CLASS OF 08!!!! I was expecting some kind of response whether it be boo's or cheers from other graduates that were there but mostly all I heard was *crickets*. And lastly Mrs. Reynolds was one of the hosts and everyone kept screaming about how they love Mrs. Reynolds. So close to the end I got into a screaming match with I think Tyler Bourke(thats who it sounded like) about who loved Mrs. Reynolds more. After that we went to T.B. and then home.
Thursday October 23, 2008
I didn't get out of bed until close to 1p.m. and didn't do much after that except get ready to go to work at 4:30. Work was boring but when I got home I got a call from Eric and it is usually a toss up whether it is gonna be a good call or a call where your like I shouldn't have picked that up.(just kidding) but anyway he asked if I wanted to go over to his house so we could all go to Best Buy tomorrow and play some GHWorld Tour.
Friday October 24, 2008
I am getting even more tired as I go along so all we did today was got up and went to play some Guitar Hero than I went home rested a little bit and went to work. So I really need to go to bed so that tomorrow night I can write a real blog even though this was longer than expected so until tomorrow night....
Peace Out!
Blah!
I am laying in Erics bed right now, I planned on writing a blog tonight(a real one) but my plans were changed last minute. We have plans tomorrow to hang out at best buy all day to play Guitar Hero World Tour(yea we are losers) so tomorrow night I will write a full blog so until then.............
Peace Out!
Peace Out!
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
"Just Take It One Thing At A Time"
To sort of explain my title a little bit. Have you ever had to do something that while looking at it as a whole it seemed daunting and possibly impossible but then you start the task and you just do it one piece at a time or do one thing at a time. Before you know it the task is completed and your left thinking to your self "wow that wasn't nearly as bad as I had originally thought it was gonna be". In the restaurant business(especially as a food runner) you just have to take it one table at a time, just focus on getting that one order out and then move on to the next one and before you know it you have served 130(that's just people that's not counting salads and appetizer plates) people in just under 2 hours. Now I am trying to integrate that philosophy into my own life, I just have to take it one day at a time and not make so many plans down the road because if you do you are only asking for disappointment. As I look at my life and all the things I have planned: Saving Money, Getting a Laptop, and then Moving Out with Jeremy and Eric, It all seems like there is a good chance that it will all fall through but as long as I take it day by day hopefully I can look back and be like "wow I am actually moved out and away from my family and living with Jeremy and Eric" so that was a "short" explanation haha.
Now before I start I want to post a response to Chris' blog because I didn't get a chance to today and since he kinda wrote a long one for me I thought that I would include my response in my blog, so here it goes.
I am also one of the few to experience a brelinner, and I kinda like it cause I don't feel as fat because I am not wasting the day by eating a whole bunch of shit LOL.
I laughed about the sub parenthesis cause last nights blog was the first time I have used them to :D, and why hate on Dewie.
As soon as I buy another 360 I am most definitely buying Dead Space and as for Bioshock I unfortunately never finished(actually I didnt even get that far) but from what I played it was an AMAZING game.
I fully appreciate the shout out and I am glad that I have been rewarded for the hours I put into waiting for your blog even though I would have been up anyway LOL but it is a great thing to read right before I actually go to sleep. I also pride my self on being one of the only ones to completely read all of your blogs no matter how many words.(I hope you do the same:D)
I swear I really need to stop being so lazy and catch up with Chuck it sounds like a show that I would absolutely love and the clips that I see are hysterical. One day my friend I promise I will watch all the previous episodes and catch up. Also I have agreed with you for the most part about Heroes and what they have done lately and I guess I just am not that into it anymore(I mean I still watch it every week but I am not into it enough to do research and things of that sort like I do with LOST[wow I am a nerd maybe not as big of one as Chris' but I am my own kind I guess, not to mention I am using sub parenthesis again] although there will never be another LOST)
I am very happy to see you actually socializing with somebody, there is only so much loneliness a person can take before they snap and I feared you were reaching that threshold.
About the orgy you have nothing to be sorry about, you are 18(legally an adult) you are out on your own in Orlando and you have the right to do whatever you want as long it is kept within legal bounds.
and you already know my position on the video blog we had a text discussion that I really dont feel like copying haha. But as soon as I get a laptop with a webcam I will join you if of course you decide to do it.
OK now I can start on my blog, I am warning you it isn't very long cause the only I really did was work soooo...
I woke up to no music no nothing and fearing the worst I quickly checked my phone to see how late I had slept in, after letting my eyes adjust to the light I realized that it was only noon(Phew!) I got up and walked straight to the computer like I always do( I can't wait to get my laptop so that I can just lay in bed[Uber laziness]) but I noticed something different, it was my sister laying on the couch on a school day. The reason she stayed home was because her face was kinda swollen because she got punched in the football game the previous night, but that wasn't the only reason my guess was that she was still "heartbroken" about Michael(in my opinion she was asking for it so she can't be too sad). So I hopped online and dugg around a little(haha a digg joke[only chris will get that one :( {wow I need to stop all this sub parenthesis wait... now I am in a sub sub parenthesis}]) Seriously I need to stop that! Anyway all I did was watch some videos... oh and last nights episode of Heroes, it was good but up above I explained where I am at with the show. Then 3:30 rolled around and I had to get ready for work so I could be clocked in by 4. OK I forgot to mention this before but the way we all clock in and out is by a device that reads your palm print(a hand scanner) you type in the last 5 digits of your SSN and put your hand on the scanner but you have to make sure that your fingers are touching all the little posts sticking up out of it, anyway its so bad ass and definitely the most creative way of clocking in and out I have ever seen. Back to my day, I got there right on time right as everyone were enjoying some chicken tenders and fries so I grabbed a plate and joined the rest of them. Now on Tuesdays we have live music and this was the first week that it was back outside under the tent in the back of the restaurant, so I had a whole new table layout to memorize luckily for me the table numbers were on the tables. We spent the next hour making sure that everything was ready for the 100+ guests we would have that night. Everyone started showing up around 5/5:30 about the time the band started playing. As everyone was being seated outside I realized how hard of a night it would be(and here is where my title comes from) before I knew it we were underway. I want to make a point, I know how busy restaurants can get I worked at Blue Water Bistro but Rosie's is a totally different kind of busy. At Blue we would do somewhere from 300-500 people but it was spread out over like 5/5 and half hours but at Rosie's we have 100+ but they all come in within a hour or two. So Blue is more people but spread out and Rosie's is not as many but all concentrated into a short time. Anyway I decided to take it one tray at a time and not get flustered over the quantity of people out back getting ready to order. Although having a bad ass executive chef to talk to makes it much easier, we often have little quip battles he will say something witty and then I try to counter with something equal or better(he usually wins LOL) but he is such a cool guy and I am glad he is not a dick like some boss's (ahem Diane)<--- for Jeremy haha. Before I knew it the night was over and I was on my way home to chillax(Chill/Relax) so now I am here finishing this and about to watch House M.D.
oh and after a conversation with Chris I will also ask my readers if they would hate or enjoy watching my fat ass on a video blog I feel that I could possibly be a good personality on film but it would only start out as a experiment and nothing permanent so please give me your honest opinion(although I doubt anyone will... well Chris but I already know that) sooo......
Peace Out!
Damn only 1500 words I was hoping for 2000+ two days in a row, I guess I am not Hays caliber yet but I am getting there.
Now before I start I want to post a response to Chris' blog because I didn't get a chance to today and since he kinda wrote a long one for me I thought that I would include my response in my blog, so here it goes.
I am also one of the few to experience a brelinner, and I kinda like it cause I don't feel as fat because I am not wasting the day by eating a whole bunch of shit LOL.
I laughed about the sub parenthesis cause last nights blog was the first time I have used them to :D, and why hate on Dewie.
As soon as I buy another 360 I am most definitely buying Dead Space and as for Bioshock I unfortunately never finished(actually I didnt even get that far) but from what I played it was an AMAZING game.
I fully appreciate the shout out and I am glad that I have been rewarded for the hours I put into waiting for your blog even though I would have been up anyway LOL but it is a great thing to read right before I actually go to sleep. I also pride my self on being one of the only ones to completely read all of your blogs no matter how many words.(I hope you do the same:D)
I swear I really need to stop being so lazy and catch up with Chuck it sounds like a show that I would absolutely love and the clips that I see are hysterical. One day my friend I promise I will watch all the previous episodes and catch up. Also I have agreed with you for the most part about Heroes and what they have done lately and I guess I just am not that into it anymore(I mean I still watch it every week but I am not into it enough to do research and things of that sort like I do with LOST[wow I am a nerd maybe not as big of one as Chris' but I am my own kind I guess, not to mention I am using sub parenthesis again] although there will never be another LOST)
I am very happy to see you actually socializing with somebody, there is only so much loneliness a person can take before they snap and I feared you were reaching that threshold.
About the orgy you have nothing to be sorry about, you are 18(legally an adult) you are out on your own in Orlando and you have the right to do whatever you want as long it is kept within legal bounds.
and you already know my position on the video blog we had a text discussion that I really dont feel like copying haha. But as soon as I get a laptop with a webcam I will join you if of course you decide to do it.
OK now I can start on my blog, I am warning you it isn't very long cause the only I really did was work soooo...
I woke up to no music no nothing and fearing the worst I quickly checked my phone to see how late I had slept in, after letting my eyes adjust to the light I realized that it was only noon(Phew!) I got up and walked straight to the computer like I always do( I can't wait to get my laptop so that I can just lay in bed[Uber laziness]) but I noticed something different, it was my sister laying on the couch on a school day. The reason she stayed home was because her face was kinda swollen because she got punched in the football game the previous night, but that wasn't the only reason my guess was that she was still "heartbroken" about Michael(in my opinion she was asking for it so she can't be too sad). So I hopped online and dugg around a little(haha a digg joke[only chris will get that one :( {wow I need to stop all this sub parenthesis wait... now I am in a sub sub parenthesis}]) Seriously I need to stop that! Anyway all I did was watch some videos... oh and last nights episode of Heroes, it was good but up above I explained where I am at with the show. Then 3:30 rolled around and I had to get ready for work so I could be clocked in by 4. OK I forgot to mention this before but the way we all clock in and out is by a device that reads your palm print(a hand scanner) you type in the last 5 digits of your SSN and put your hand on the scanner but you have to make sure that your fingers are touching all the little posts sticking up out of it, anyway its so bad ass and definitely the most creative way of clocking in and out I have ever seen. Back to my day, I got there right on time right as everyone were enjoying some chicken tenders and fries so I grabbed a plate and joined the rest of them. Now on Tuesdays we have live music and this was the first week that it was back outside under the tent in the back of the restaurant, so I had a whole new table layout to memorize luckily for me the table numbers were on the tables. We spent the next hour making sure that everything was ready for the 100+ guests we would have that night. Everyone started showing up around 5/5:30 about the time the band started playing. As everyone was being seated outside I realized how hard of a night it would be(and here is where my title comes from) before I knew it we were underway. I want to make a point, I know how busy restaurants can get I worked at Blue Water Bistro but Rosie's is a totally different kind of busy. At Blue we would do somewhere from 300-500 people but it was spread out over like 5/5 and half hours but at Rosie's we have 100+ but they all come in within a hour or two. So Blue is more people but spread out and Rosie's is not as many but all concentrated into a short time. Anyway I decided to take it one tray at a time and not get flustered over the quantity of people out back getting ready to order. Although having a bad ass executive chef to talk to makes it much easier, we often have little quip battles he will say something witty and then I try to counter with something equal or better(he usually wins LOL) but he is such a cool guy and I am glad he is not a dick like some boss's (ahem Diane)<--- for Jeremy haha. Before I knew it the night was over and I was on my way home to chillax(Chill/Relax) so now I am here finishing this and about to watch House M.D.
oh and after a conversation with Chris I will also ask my readers if they would hate or enjoy watching my fat ass on a video blog I feel that I could possibly be a good personality on film but it would only start out as a experiment and nothing permanent so please give me your honest opinion(although I doubt anyone will... well Chris but I already know that) sooo......
Peace Out!
Damn only 1500 words I was hoping for 2000+ two days in a row, I guess I am not Hays caliber yet but I am getting there.
Monday, October 20, 2008
With Extreme Happiness Comes A Big Fuck You!
I just wanted to start because I didn't want to forget the title plus if you read this before my full post hopefully you will be "what the hell does it mean?" well you will find out later tonight because I have a lot to blog about it was an interesting weekend. But for right now I will have to say, so long farewell I will be back later. I am going to the Estero High Powderpuff football game, I remember when I coached the seniors last year.... Good Times!
I am back!
I sure this happens to everyone in some way or another but lately life has just been picking on me, like when your playing fetch with a dog and that one time when you try to fake him out by pretending to throw it and hiding it behind your back. The dog is so excited to be playing and he sees the ball in your and you go through the motion of throwing it and then he is looking around for where the ball should be and then realizes its nowhere to be found and then gets a little sad because the game is over but then looks to you with the ball still in your hand and is mad because you didn't throw but is quickly over and back to the game.(yea that whole paragraph/metaphor is my life LOL) I was so excited for many things this weekend but shortly after getting under way life just flips me the fucking bird and is like FUCK YOU!
Saturday started off like most of my work days, me waking up late and getting on the computer but I was awoken by a familiar but douchey voice(you guessed it Chris Hermi) he told me he was in town and asked what I was doing for the day and I told him work at 5. He said that he was gonna come over for a bit and asked if I wanted something from subway and I eagerly said yes because I had just woken up and was hungry(unlike Hays I feel perfectly fine with using Hermi for free stuff) He made is way over here and we just talked a little and watched some T.V. at about 2 or 2:30 he had to leave and I had to finish my internet stuff before work. I was also excited the whole day because I had made a plan to go up to Peace River to meet up with Jeremy and fam. for his moms birthday. I started getting ready at 4:30 and was out the door by quarter til. I got in and noticed these big platters of fruit and cheese put together in a very decorative manner so I knew something was up after some question and answers I found out that there was a wedding and a pre-reception that was gonna happen out back. At first I thought shit all those people and I am the only food runner for the night but I was informed that they wouldn't come in or be ordering food just the fruit, cheese and other appetizers(I was very relieved) The rest of the night wasn't bad pretty busy for just me(a party of 20 and a 10 top) but I survived. After I got home I quickly got all my shit done wrote the lightning blog and got to sleep.
Sunday - 5:25a.m. I awake to the Sound of Madness(well at least the song) I got up surprisingly easy I think it was the excitement:D(the excitement wouldn't last all day) I jumped in the shower and got all packed for the trip and was out the door by 6:30a.m. I stopped by the gas station to get some necessities for a long drive at the time of the day. Gas... check Energy Drink... check Water... check Snacks... check um... ok lets roll. I got on I-75 and made my way north, I was going a steady 73 mph and put in on cruise. I then pressed the button to accelerate while in cruise and my rpm spiked to 4000 so I quickly stepped on the brake to disengage cruise, not thinking anything of it I continued on. A couple exits I noticed that my car was SMOKING! so I pulled over asap and popped my hood to find a ton of smoke or steam I was uncertain at the time. I called my dad and he said check the oil which I did and realized that there wasn't much *flashbacks to all the times my mother said "check your oil"* I told my dad that I would get off at the next exit and get some oil before making my way all the way to Peace River. The nearest exit had absolutely no stations so I had to go even farther to get to a gas station, fearing I might blow my engine or start smoking again I slowly marched at a steady 55 mph. After being passed by like 20 people I finally came upon an exit with a gas station, as I was putting two quarts of oil in my car I called Jeremy and told him I might be a little bit later than I had planned. After some much needed oil I got back on I-75 thinking that the problem was fixed so I sped up to 73 mph and noticed in my rear view I was smoking AGAIN! I pulled over and called my dad because I had no clue what was wrong with my vehicle he told my it could be my radiator but to check it my car would have to be off and cooled down, he told me to get to the campground and then call him. I continued going about 60 mph trying not to evoke another smoking incident. I finally got to Jeremy and family's camp and had his dad look at it. I showed him the stuff that collected on my back window(which means it had to be steam because smoke does collect on surfaces like that which means it couldn't be an oil problem and my engine wasn't about to blow.. good news) after some further investigation by Jeremy's dad and he finally had a diagnosis for the sickness. It seems that my fairly NEW transmission had a leak somewhere and was leaking transmission fluid *sarcastic yay* after checking the level of fluid in the transmission we found out there was none. We then went to breakfast and went back to camp where Jeremy and I had an hour long or so conversation/argument about jobs, the economy, gamestop, shitty managers/district managers, etc. we all decided to go for a drive Jeremy and his father on four wheelers me and his mom in a golf cart I was unable to drive because I didn't have a yellow wristband. We went out by the lake where i got some really nice pictures. When we got back Jeremy and I played some Uno and hung out while his mom and dad started to pack everything up. But before we could leave we had to get some tran. fluid or I would never make it back without completely fucking up my new $1,400 transmission. After the trip to the auto part store and some fluid we were on our way, me trying to stay under 70 mph. We made it back down to Jeremy's just fine with no smoke outs from my car. We then started unpacking and cleaning Jeremy's ATV. We then went inside where we tried to figure out what to do, I finally convinced Jeremy after like half an hour to watch the 3 hour season finale of LOST(it was awesome I even enjoyed it even though I knew what was going to happen) I LOVE LOST!! At around 10 we decided to get some sleep, I was especially tired because of waking up at 5:30a.m.
Monday - 11:00 (I think)
I again awoke to The Sound of Madness and a phone tossed at my chest, It was my mom on the phone asking what I was doing for the day and when I was expected home. I told her the same thing I always do "I don't know" (I don't know we she always asks me "well then when will you know" because the answer is always I don't know) about an hour of doing nothing went buy when I started reading Chris' blog and came upon the part about Monopoly and it got Jeremy and I thinking about the Star Wars Saga Edition(yes Chris' you may like the O.G.[Original Gansta] version of Monopoly but nothing beats Republic Credits, Buying and selling planets, Jedi and Sith cards, and using fucking Yoda as your game piece[it is better than a boot or car or thimble]) An hour of me sucking and and bad rolls lead me to almost zero money and just about to mortgage all my properties when I just gave up. So we went back to Jeremy's room to do more of nothing when I started pulling up internet video's after an hour of some laughs and WTF's I called it a day and left Jeremy's and headed home. After stopping at good ol' McDonald's I got a call from my mom asking if I wanted to go to my sister's Powderpuff football game, since I had absolutely nothing else planned I was up for it. We got there with plenty of time to spare, the game wasn't too exciting but entertaining at least. I was happier about what I would soon find out about when I got home. So when I got home I had to catch up on 15 pages of top digg stories which took up quite some time, during this my sister had gotten home and went straight to her room. Now to setup this next part I will go into a little past that most of my readers probably know about. OK now a year ago my sister was dating this douche Michael Rush for a couple months and when it had sort of run its course they "broke up" (I put that in parenthesis because no matter how much they denied it they were still pretty much together Michael was still always over here eating all of our food walking in our house like he lived here and doing whatever he wanted like he was a member of this family) So again most of my readers know of my complete distaste and hatred for this person, it was fairly obvious even to Michael himself. Now I know I hate him so much but how my sister was treating him was absolutely wrong and I wouldn't want that on any one. She would always yell at him and boss him around like the bitch that he is. She would use him for his money, transportation and pretty much thing she wanted, the reason being is that my sister wanted him to wait for as long as it took her to want to get back together and he like a fucking idiot said he would. Now I know I am the farthest from a relationship expert but I do a hell of a lot of observing and take in a lot of knowledge and the last thing he should have done was smother her like he did because my sister took all of it and realized that she could get all of the perks of a relationship like being taken care of but not having to deal with the label of taken and the other negatives that come with a relationship. With that said I return to the present, I was on the computer told me that Michael had I guess gotten with some other girl and took her to the powderpuff game and my sister found out and was very upset. Now I know you are thinking what I was thinking "well they weren't "together" so how could my sister be so upset" well because she is a dumb ass and finally realized that she was in a relationship the whole time even though any time you would ask her she would be like "WE ARE JUST FRIENDS" well guess what you weren't and now you know that. So his brother Ray was over here to pick up all the shit of Micheal's that was in my sisters room (wow that sounds like something that would happen after breaking up with a boyfriend/girlfriend but not if you just stop being friends with someone) anyway I am happy because there will no longer be any douche bagery to make me mad in my own house(high five myself) Now my sister will have to get a real job and her license because she doesn't have someone there to mooch of off for money and rides so finally after the unfairness of mine and her lives it is starting to balance itself out.
I have work tomorrow and it is gonna be a bitch but as long as I keep in mind that I am working toward a better life I can handle anything. Also on Wednesday I have to take my car to the guy that did my transmission and get him to check for anything broken or just knocked loose, I am hoping for the latter because it is way easier and less expensive to fix. So until then...
Peace Out! YAY!! the Douche Bag is Gone Woooo!!!!!
While your at it checkout Randomness of MASSive O
I am back!
I sure this happens to everyone in some way or another but lately life has just been picking on me, like when your playing fetch with a dog and that one time when you try to fake him out by pretending to throw it and hiding it behind your back. The dog is so excited to be playing and he sees the ball in your and you go through the motion of throwing it and then he is looking around for where the ball should be and then realizes its nowhere to be found and then gets a little sad because the game is over but then looks to you with the ball still in your hand and is mad because you didn't throw but is quickly over and back to the game.(yea that whole paragraph/metaphor is my life LOL) I was so excited for many things this weekend but shortly after getting under way life just flips me the fucking bird and is like FUCK YOU!
Saturday started off like most of my work days, me waking up late and getting on the computer but I was awoken by a familiar but douchey voice(you guessed it Chris Hermi) he told me he was in town and asked what I was doing for the day and I told him work at 5. He said that he was gonna come over for a bit and asked if I wanted something from subway and I eagerly said yes because I had just woken up and was hungry(unlike Hays I feel perfectly fine with using Hermi for free stuff) He made is way over here and we just talked a little and watched some T.V. at about 2 or 2:30 he had to leave and I had to finish my internet stuff before work. I was also excited the whole day because I had made a plan to go up to Peace River to meet up with Jeremy and fam. for his moms birthday. I started getting ready at 4:30 and was out the door by quarter til. I got in and noticed these big platters of fruit and cheese put together in a very decorative manner so I knew something was up after some question and answers I found out that there was a wedding and a pre-reception that was gonna happen out back. At first I thought shit all those people and I am the only food runner for the night but I was informed that they wouldn't come in or be ordering food just the fruit, cheese and other appetizers(I was very relieved) The rest of the night wasn't bad pretty busy for just me(a party of 20 and a 10 top) but I survived. After I got home I quickly got all my shit done wrote the lightning blog and got to sleep.
Sunday - 5:25a.m. I awake to the Sound of Madness(well at least the song) I got up surprisingly easy I think it was the excitement:D(the excitement wouldn't last all day) I jumped in the shower and got all packed for the trip and was out the door by 6:30a.m. I stopped by the gas station to get some necessities for a long drive at the time of the day. Gas... check Energy Drink... check Water... check Snacks... check um... ok lets roll. I got on I-75 and made my way north, I was going a steady 73 mph and put in on cruise. I then pressed the button to accelerate while in cruise and my rpm spiked to 4000 so I quickly stepped on the brake to disengage cruise, not thinking anything of it I continued on. A couple exits I noticed that my car was SMOKING! so I pulled over asap and popped my hood to find a ton of smoke or steam I was uncertain at the time. I called my dad and he said check the oil which I did and realized that there wasn't much *flashbacks to all the times my mother said "check your oil"* I told my dad that I would get off at the next exit and get some oil before making my way all the way to Peace River. The nearest exit had absolutely no stations so I had to go even farther to get to a gas station, fearing I might blow my engine or start smoking again I slowly marched at a steady 55 mph. After being passed by like 20 people I finally came upon an exit with a gas station, as I was putting two quarts of oil in my car I called Jeremy and told him I might be a little bit later than I had planned. After some much needed oil I got back on I-75 thinking that the problem was fixed so I sped up to 73 mph and noticed in my rear view I was smoking AGAIN! I pulled over and called my dad because I had no clue what was wrong with my vehicle he told my it could be my radiator but to check it my car would have to be off and cooled down, he told me to get to the campground and then call him. I continued going about 60 mph trying not to evoke another smoking incident. I finally got to Jeremy and family's camp and had his dad look at it. I showed him the stuff that collected on my back window(which means it had to be steam because smoke does collect on surfaces like that which means it couldn't be an oil problem and my engine wasn't about to blow.. good news) after some further investigation by Jeremy's dad and he finally had a diagnosis for the sickness. It seems that my fairly NEW transmission had a leak somewhere and was leaking transmission fluid *sarcastic yay* after checking the level of fluid in the transmission we found out there was none. We then went to breakfast and went back to camp where Jeremy and I had an hour long or so conversation/argument about jobs, the economy, gamestop, shitty managers/district managers, etc. we all decided to go for a drive Jeremy and his father on four wheelers me and his mom in a golf cart I was unable to drive because I didn't have a yellow wristband. We went out by the lake where i got some really nice pictures. When we got back Jeremy and I played some Uno and hung out while his mom and dad started to pack everything up. But before we could leave we had to get some tran. fluid or I would never make it back without completely fucking up my new $1,400 transmission. After the trip to the auto part store and some fluid we were on our way, me trying to stay under 70 mph. We made it back down to Jeremy's just fine with no smoke outs from my car. We then started unpacking and cleaning Jeremy's ATV. We then went inside where we tried to figure out what to do, I finally convinced Jeremy after like half an hour to watch the 3 hour season finale of LOST(it was awesome I even enjoyed it even though I knew what was going to happen) I LOVE LOST!! At around 10 we decided to get some sleep, I was especially tired because of waking up at 5:30a.m.
Monday - 11:00 (I think)
I again awoke to The Sound of Madness and a phone tossed at my chest, It was my mom on the phone asking what I was doing for the day and when I was expected home. I told her the same thing I always do "I don't know" (I don't know we she always asks me "well then when will you know" because the answer is always I don't know) about an hour of doing nothing went buy when I started reading Chris' blog and came upon the part about Monopoly and it got Jeremy and I thinking about the Star Wars Saga Edition(yes Chris' you may like the O.G.[Original Gansta] version of Monopoly but nothing beats Republic Credits, Buying and selling planets, Jedi and Sith cards, and using fucking Yoda as your game piece[it is better than a boot or car or thimble]) An hour of me sucking and and bad rolls lead me to almost zero money and just about to mortgage all my properties when I just gave up. So we went back to Jeremy's room to do more of nothing when I started pulling up internet video's after an hour of some laughs and WTF's I called it a day and left Jeremy's and headed home. After stopping at good ol' McDonald's I got a call from my mom asking if I wanted to go to my sister's Powderpuff football game, since I had absolutely nothing else planned I was up for it. We got there with plenty of time to spare, the game wasn't too exciting but entertaining at least. I was happier about what I would soon find out about when I got home. So when I got home I had to catch up on 15 pages of top digg stories which took up quite some time, during this my sister had gotten home and went straight to her room. Now to setup this next part I will go into a little past that most of my readers probably know about. OK now a year ago my sister was dating this douche Michael Rush for a couple months and when it had sort of run its course they "broke up" (I put that in parenthesis because no matter how much they denied it they were still pretty much together Michael was still always over here eating all of our food walking in our house like he lived here and doing whatever he wanted like he was a member of this family) So again most of my readers know of my complete distaste and hatred for this person, it was fairly obvious even to Michael himself. Now I know I hate him so much but how my sister was treating him was absolutely wrong and I wouldn't want that on any one. She would always yell at him and boss him around like the bitch that he is. She would use him for his money, transportation and pretty much thing she wanted, the reason being is that my sister wanted him to wait for as long as it took her to want to get back together and he like a fucking idiot said he would. Now I know I am the farthest from a relationship expert but I do a hell of a lot of observing and take in a lot of knowledge and the last thing he should have done was smother her like he did because my sister took all of it and realized that she could get all of the perks of a relationship like being taken care of but not having to deal with the label of taken and the other negatives that come with a relationship. With that said I return to the present, I was on the computer told me that Michael had I guess gotten with some other girl and took her to the powderpuff game and my sister found out and was very upset. Now I know you are thinking what I was thinking "well they weren't "together" so how could my sister be so upset" well because she is a dumb ass and finally realized that she was in a relationship the whole time even though any time you would ask her she would be like "WE ARE JUST FRIENDS" well guess what you weren't and now you know that. So his brother Ray was over here to pick up all the shit of Micheal's that was in my sisters room (wow that sounds like something that would happen after breaking up with a boyfriend/girlfriend but not if you just stop being friends with someone) anyway I am happy because there will no longer be any douche bagery to make me mad in my own house(high five myself) Now my sister will have to get a real job and her license because she doesn't have someone there to mooch of off for money and rides so finally after the unfairness of mine and her lives it is starting to balance itself out.
I have work tomorrow and it is gonna be a bitch but as long as I keep in mind that I am working toward a better life I can handle anything. Also on Wednesday I have to take my car to the guy that did my transmission and get him to check for anything broken or just knocked loose, I am hoping for the latter because it is way easier and less expensive to fix. So until then...
Peace Out! YAY!! the Douche Bag is Gone Woooo!!!!!
While your at it checkout Randomness of MASSive O
Saturday, October 18, 2008
Peaceful Peace River!
So am going to adopt Chris' lightening blog because tonight I really need to be in bed ASAP because I will be waking up at 5:30 to get ready and then head up to Peace River to hang with Jeremy and family for his mother's birthday. I even got her a card(a funny one). Also for Chris, Hermi was over at my house earlier today and forgot his debit and he wants me to drop it off before I go up to Peace River but if he wants it he can get his lazy ass down here and get it I am not wasting anymore gas than I need to.
So.... the last few days have been quite boring just the same old wake up somewhere between 12pm and 2pm then diddle daddle online then go to work come home diddle daddle some more then not get to bed until 3am or 4am then wake up and repeat. I have still not heard anything from Target I guess they still haven't gotten the results of my drug test. Anyway I will call them tomorrow. So I won't be able to blog until probably Tuesday night because I will be at Jeremy's Monday night (I hope we watch Iron Man on Blu Ray) So until then..... Have a Peaceful Sunday, Monday, and Tuesday
Peace Out!
(WOW! a lot of Peace in today's blog)
Edit: I wanted to leave you all a video I insist you watch it it is very good.
Obama '08 - Vote For Hope from MC Yogi on Vimeo.
So.... the last few days have been quite boring just the same old wake up somewhere between 12pm and 2pm then diddle daddle online then go to work come home diddle daddle some more then not get to bed until 3am or 4am then wake up and repeat. I have still not heard anything from Target I guess they still haven't gotten the results of my drug test. Anyway I will call them tomorrow. So I won't be able to blog until probably Tuesday night because I will be at Jeremy's Monday night (I hope we watch Iron Man on Blu Ray) So until then..... Have a Peaceful Sunday, Monday, and Tuesday
Peace Out!
(WOW! a lot of Peace in today's blog)
Edit: I wanted to leave you all a video I insist you watch it it is very good.
Obama '08 - Vote For Hope from MC Yogi on Vimeo.
Thursday, October 16, 2008
I Can't Wait To Get My First Paycheck!
Unfortunately I honestly did absolutely nothing today after I woke up at 2p.m. all I did was surf the internet and catch up on Fringe from the night before. So I can't wait to finally have some money to put in my gas tank so I don't have to be here stuck in this house for the whole day. I should be getting my first check either tomorrow or Friday, as soon as I get it I am going to use it to open a checking account so I don't always have to carry cash around with me. Well technically a debit card is cash but I mean paper cash. So as soon as I do that I will finally for maybe the second time since I got my Explorer fill it up. I work tomorrow but it will be an easy day but I will let you know what all goes down tomorrow night.
I watched most of the Debate tonight and it was like all the rest Obama stood his ground and corrected all the lies that spewed out of McCain's smug looking face and again all the early polls say Obama won pretty decisively. I just hope for the last 19 days before the election that Obama's poll numbers demolish McCain's so that it will be a landslide win for the Democrats. As of right now I have nothing left to say about McCain's despicable campaign that I haven't already ranted about yet it still surprises me to hear what some of this hick ass motherfuckers still say about Obama.
Below I post a video I stumbled upon today and below that I will answer and contradict what everyone says in aforementioned video.
1) It is not just a Christian Nation america is a "melting pot" where there are multiple nationalities and religions.
2) Second stringer?.... um ok
3) The Holy Spirit can suck a cock(too bad there is no such thing as a Holy Spirit)
4) Honesty... Integrity... HA what a joke!!
5) False even McHate never said anything about being related you dumb fuck
6) Another False he is not friends with terrorists
7) If it talks like a retard and acts like a retard well then....
8) NO
9) HIS MOTHER IS FUCKING WHITE AND HE IS HALF WHITE YOU IGNORANT REDNECK MOTHERFUCKERS!!!!!
ok and as for that guy at the end I too have been called an Unamerican so more power to you!
Also the person who called me Unamerican sent me a text tonight and said Obama was awesome in the debate.
Until tomorrow...
Peace Out!
I watched most of the Debate tonight and it was like all the rest Obama stood his ground and corrected all the lies that spewed out of McCain's smug looking face and again all the early polls say Obama won pretty decisively. I just hope for the last 19 days before the election that Obama's poll numbers demolish McCain's so that it will be a landslide win for the Democrats. As of right now I have nothing left to say about McCain's despicable campaign that I haven't already ranted about yet it still surprises me to hear what some of this hick ass motherfuckers still say about Obama.
Below I post a video I stumbled upon today and below that I will answer and contradict what everyone says in aforementioned video.
1) It is not just a Christian Nation america is a "melting pot" where there are multiple nationalities and religions.
2) Second stringer?.... um ok
3) The Holy Spirit can suck a cock(too bad there is no such thing as a Holy Spirit)
4) Honesty... Integrity... HA what a joke!!
5) False even McHate never said anything about being related you dumb fuck
6) Another False he is not friends with terrorists
7) If it talks like a retard and acts like a retard well then....
8) NO
9) HIS MOTHER IS FUCKING WHITE AND HE IS HALF WHITE YOU IGNORANT REDNECK MOTHERFUCKERS!!!!!
ok and as for that guy at the end I too have been called an Unamerican so more power to you!
Also the person who called me Unamerican sent me a text tonight and said Obama was awesome in the debate.
Until tomorrow...
Peace Out!
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
What is Sleep and Who Really Needs It?!
Oh wait... I do! well not as much as most people because I seem to function on hardly any sleep just fine, maybe not as efficiently but I still function.
As I write this I am listening to the awesome voice of Keith Olbermann and waiting for House to get done downloading. I didn't write a blog last night (sorry Chris :-) ). I just want to say that It is still a few months before I move out with Jeremy and Eric but I already have a theme song for the occasion.
Yesterday
So yesterday I didn't get to sleep until about 3:30a.m. knowing that I would have to be up at 5a.m. I decided that I would be a nice son and drive my mom to a procedure at 6 something(the reason someone had to drive her was because she would be put on anesthetics so she would be unable to drive) I managed to get up at 5:30 and be ready by quarter til. We made it down there in time and I found out that I would be waiting for about 1 and a half to 2 hours(YAY) half way through I left to go to the mall where I went up to the top of the parking garage of JC Pennys(where your dad works Chris LOL) to enjoy the excellent breeze, after awhile I went back and waited the rest of the time. After we had gotten home I remembered that I had to go to Super Target to fill out some papers and get processed before I left I talked my mom into buying me some BK Lounge(and I actually had Coups.) So I left for STarget to get my stuff done when I got there it took a short while before any one was able to help me out. After taking another damn assessment on the computer, Stephanie the Human Resources lady gave me the paper I had to take with me for my drug test and told me I was done and that I could possibly be scheduled for orientation on Next Monday at 8 am depending on when the finish drug test and background check. I left target and excitedly went straight to BK and got my meal, then got back home, ate it and realized how tired I was so I wanted to take a nap before my mothers next appointment at 2:30, about a half hour after my nap started my mom informed me that she switched the day of the app. and told me I could continue my slumber. As soon as she closed the door I was out again. Now 6pm I get up and go out to my computer and do my usual as well as watch that nights episode of Countdown at 10. After another couple hours of mindlessly surfing I got off and went to lay down but me being addicted to internet and now blogs I used my iPod touch to keep checking for someone to post there new blog so I could read and comment. And the first up Chris' mom I read and commented quickly which was then followed by a comment by a Chris before we knew it we were in a conversion but Chris wisely suggested to switch to texts so that his mom doesn't get mad. I spent the next hour talking to Chris about the Digg story he submitted about Naples raping of Estero in football. He was trying to gather enough people to digg it to get it on the front page, No luck but we tried. After all that I finally got to sleep.
Today
I got up at 10 not because I wanted to but because I had to go give my urine to a nurse to test for illegal substances before 11:20. I finall found it at like 10:50 but as soon as I walked in I said "Fuck" (in my head) there were like 8 people and I only had half an hour to get this shit done so I signed in and patiently waited to see if they might call me in time. It hit 11:15 so I got up and told the nurse how I needed to get it done NOW. Thankfully she said ok and I took my drug test with seconds to spare. Now I planned on getting right in and right out so that I could go back to sleep before work to tonight but after waiting for half an hour I decided I would just stay up until work. Time between drug test and work is boring so we are fast forwarding ahead to work. I got there at exactly 4pm it is a Tuesday so that means that it is Unplugged night which is when there is live music for the guests. The night also promised to be the busiest night I have worked so at around 5:30 when the band act started to play the dining room was pretty full with people the most people I have seen in there at one time. The band wasn't half bad they actually did pretty good covers of some country songs and at the end did a really good cover of "Hotel California". We ended up doing exactly 100 people which is the most since I have been there but it wasn't too bad I have definitely worked worse nights than that but it isn't season yet so we will see how busy it actually gets. After all the cleaning up I couldn't wait to get home and download House and watch which I am doing now I just wish it would fucking download faster. So as I close out yet another blog and wait for House and get ready for bed I wish all who read a Good Night and Pleasant Tomorrow (that means you Chris, Jeremy, Chris' Mom, Maybe Eric and Maybe Liz)
Until Tomorrow...
Peace Out!
(In case you are wondering I try to end every blog with peace out because I always say it when saying goodbye to someone plus I love having something consistent with every blog and its cool having a signature closing)
As I write this I am listening to the awesome voice of Keith Olbermann and waiting for House to get done downloading. I didn't write a blog last night (sorry Chris :-) ). I just want to say that It is still a few months before I move out with Jeremy and Eric but I already have a theme song for the occasion.
My eyes are open wide
And by the way, I made it
Through the day
I watched the world outside
By the way, I'm leaving out
Today
I just saw Hayley's comet
Shooting
Said why you always running
In place?
Even the man in the
Moon disappeared
Somewhere in the
Stratosphere
[Chorus]
Tell my mother,
Tell my father
I've done the best I can
To make them realise
This is my life
I hope they understand
I'm not angry, I'm just saying...
Sometimes goodbye
Is a second chance
Please don't cry
One tear for me
I'm not afraid of
What I have to say
This is my one and
Only voice
So listen close, it's
Only for today
I just saw Hayley's comet
Shooting
Said why you always running
In place?
Even the man in the
Moon disappeared
Somewhere in the
Stratosphere
[Chorus]
Tell my mother,
Tell my father
I've done the best I can
To make them realise
This is my life
I hope they understand
I'm not angry, I'm just saying...
Sometimes goodbye
Is a second chance
Here's my chance
This is my chance
Tell my mother,
Tell my father
I've done the best I can
To make them realise
This is my life
I hope they understand
I'm not angry, I'm just saying...
Sometimes goodbye
Is a second chance
Sometimes goodbye
Is a second chance [x2]
Yesterday
So yesterday I didn't get to sleep until about 3:30a.m. knowing that I would have to be up at 5a.m. I decided that I would be a nice son and drive my mom to a procedure at 6 something(the reason someone had to drive her was because she would be put on anesthetics so she would be unable to drive) I managed to get up at 5:30 and be ready by quarter til. We made it down there in time and I found out that I would be waiting for about 1 and a half to 2 hours(YAY) half way through I left to go to the mall where I went up to the top of the parking garage of JC Pennys(where your dad works Chris LOL) to enjoy the excellent breeze, after awhile I went back and waited the rest of the time. After we had gotten home I remembered that I had to go to Super Target to fill out some papers and get processed before I left I talked my mom into buying me some BK Lounge(and I actually had Coups.) So I left for STarget to get my stuff done when I got there it took a short while before any one was able to help me out. After taking another damn assessment on the computer, Stephanie the Human Resources lady gave me the paper I had to take with me for my drug test and told me I was done and that I could possibly be scheduled for orientation on Next Monday at 8 am depending on when the finish drug test and background check. I left target and excitedly went straight to BK and got my meal, then got back home, ate it and realized how tired I was so I wanted to take a nap before my mothers next appointment at 2:30, about a half hour after my nap started my mom informed me that she switched the day of the app. and told me I could continue my slumber. As soon as she closed the door I was out again. Now 6pm I get up and go out to my computer and do my usual as well as watch that nights episode of Countdown at 10. After another couple hours of mindlessly surfing I got off and went to lay down but me being addicted to internet and now blogs I used my iPod touch to keep checking for someone to post there new blog so I could read and comment. And the first up Chris' mom I read and commented quickly which was then followed by a comment by a Chris before we knew it we were in a conversion but Chris wisely suggested to switch to texts so that his mom doesn't get mad. I spent the next hour talking to Chris about the Digg story he submitted about Naples raping of Estero in football. He was trying to gather enough people to digg it to get it on the front page, No luck but we tried. After all that I finally got to sleep.
Today
I got up at 10 not because I wanted to but because I had to go give my urine to a nurse to test for illegal substances before 11:20. I finall found it at like 10:50 but as soon as I walked in I said "Fuck" (in my head) there were like 8 people and I only had half an hour to get this shit done so I signed in and patiently waited to see if they might call me in time. It hit 11:15 so I got up and told the nurse how I needed to get it done NOW. Thankfully she said ok and I took my drug test with seconds to spare. Now I planned on getting right in and right out so that I could go back to sleep before work to tonight but after waiting for half an hour I decided I would just stay up until work. Time between drug test and work is boring so we are fast forwarding ahead to work. I got there at exactly 4pm it is a Tuesday so that means that it is Unplugged night which is when there is live music for the guests. The night also promised to be the busiest night I have worked so at around 5:30 when the band act started to play the dining room was pretty full with people the most people I have seen in there at one time. The band wasn't half bad they actually did pretty good covers of some country songs and at the end did a really good cover of "Hotel California". We ended up doing exactly 100 people which is the most since I have been there but it wasn't too bad I have definitely worked worse nights than that but it isn't season yet so we will see how busy it actually gets. After all the cleaning up I couldn't wait to get home and download House and watch which I am doing now I just wish it would fucking download faster. So as I close out yet another blog and wait for House and get ready for bed I wish all who read a Good Night and Pleasant Tomorrow (that means you Chris, Jeremy, Chris' Mom, Maybe Eric and Maybe Liz)
Until Tomorrow...
Peace Out!
(In case you are wondering I try to end every blog with peace out because I always say it when saying goodbye to someone plus I love having something consistent with every blog and its cool having a signature closing)
Monday, October 13, 2008
Ignorance Witnessed First Hand!
I am typing this out on my Touch(iPod) so I will be quick and please don't mind any spelling or grammar errors.
Ok so today I got a picture comment on Myspace(now I'm trying to switch over completely to facebook but I still check my myspace every now and then) as I predicted it was on my picture of my Obama sign that I recieved a couple days ago. The commenter just so happened to be a fairly good friend of mine by the name of David Grunge(shortened last name) anyway I was shocked to see that the comment he left read "You are not American" (yea I know your shocked too but I have proof) so I sent him back "Wow really? So why do you want McCain to win over Obama" he also said "haha when you come over to play smash bros we can debate" and I told him to give me a good reason why. After a few hours I forgot about it until I checked it one last time before getting off and his response to me was ""because I love my country" I was shocked again to read this I couldn't believe that came out of his mouth(well brain whatever that's worse) so I quickly and a little upset replied with "hold on so you think because I support Obama I don't love this country and that the majority of the people in America don't love this country either because to win in November. You need to read the last two bulletins I posted and when you do let me know why again you support McCain and don't tell me because you love this country cause everyone in America lives this country that's why they live here so please come up with a better reason than that and then we can debate!! I take politics seriously I think everyone should which is why I want you to give a solid reason but I am guessing you can't one because you are oblivious to the facts or you just blindly follow the republicans and believe whatever they tell you."
I am still waitig for a reply but I will post it here as soon as I get it.
Honestly how much more proof do people need before they come to their fucking senses and start thinking for themselves it seriously amazed me how fucking brainwashed most people are if everybody started thinking for themselves imagine how much better the world would be seriously. I don't know how much more of this stupidity I can handle. I wish it was January already so that I can watch Obama get sworn in already. So the closer we get to an Obama administration more fucking idiots will be talking about shit that they know nothing about I am just glad that as of right now it's looking like Obama FTW. Cause if we had McCain I honestly believe we would be on the brink of something terrible.
So until tomorrow.....
Peace Out!
Fuck I have to be up in less than 4 hours
Fuck Fuck Fuck Fuck
Ok so today I got a picture comment on Myspace(now I'm trying to switch over completely to facebook but I still check my myspace every now and then) as I predicted it was on my picture of my Obama sign that I recieved a couple days ago. The commenter just so happened to be a fairly good friend of mine by the name of David Grunge(shortened last name) anyway I was shocked to see that the comment he left read "You are not American" (yea I know your shocked too but I have proof) so I sent him back "Wow really? So why do you want McCain to win over Obama" he also said "haha when you come over to play smash bros we can debate" and I told him to give me a good reason why. After a few hours I forgot about it until I checked it one last time before getting off and his response to me was ""because I love my country" I was shocked again to read this I couldn't believe that came out of his mouth(well brain whatever that's worse) so I quickly and a little upset replied with "hold on so you think because I support Obama I don't love this country and that the majority of the people in America don't love this country either because to win in November. You need to read the last two bulletins I posted and when you do let me know why again you support McCain and don't tell me because you love this country cause everyone in America lives this country that's why they live here so please come up with a better reason than that and then we can debate!! I take politics seriously I think everyone should which is why I want you to give a solid reason but I am guessing you can't one because you are oblivious to the facts or you just blindly follow the republicans and believe whatever they tell you."
I am still waitig for a reply but I will post it here as soon as I get it.
Honestly how much more proof do people need before they come to their fucking senses and start thinking for themselves it seriously amazed me how fucking brainwashed most people are if everybody started thinking for themselves imagine how much better the world would be seriously. I don't know how much more of this stupidity I can handle. I wish it was January already so that I can watch Obama get sworn in already. So the closer we get to an Obama administration more fucking idiots will be talking about shit that they know nothing about I am just glad that as of right now it's looking like Obama FTW. Cause if we had McCain I honestly believe we would be on the brink of something terrible.
So until tomorrow.....
Peace Out!
Fuck I have to be up in less than 4 hours
Fuck Fuck Fuck Fuck
Saturday, October 11, 2008
NOT Politics as Usual(Not a Maverick or My Friend)/Wow!! Where Do I Begin?!
So it has been quite a while since I sat down at my computer and wrote a full out blog but I am finally back and ready to catch everyone that reads this which is like 2 people maybe 3 or 4 up to date.
During my 4 days and 3 blogless nights, my life has taken a very unexpected but needed turn. The last blog that I wrote was all about how sad I was and how I have been just waiting for something to change and finally it has and I am so happy because everything is starting to fall in place just the way I had hoped it. Now if the rest goes the way I want it I will be living with Eric and Jeremy by February of next year. Which is about 4 months away and I can't wait. With that said I want to just get into something brief before I start from Wednesday.
OK now I didn't want to get into politics that much but in the past couple days somethings have happened and somethings have been said and I can't ignore it any longer. I will now be going into rant mode so anything I say can't be held against me and if you are a Republican I suggest looking away and just skipping this paragraph.
So the past few weeks the economy has been going to shit and ever since McCain supposedly put his campaign on pause to "rush" back to Washington and "fix" the economy which by the way took him like 22 hours to get there from New York(that is not what I would call rushing) but after the first presidential debate Obama's poll numbers have growing and McCain's dwindling. McCain knows that he can't compete with Obama when it comes to the economy and even at one point the aides of his campaign said that he wasn't going to talk about the economy anymore(which is a terrible idea considering that the economy is the most important issue right now) so anyway since McCain has realized that he is probably going to lose to Obama so they have resorted to their last ditch effort and that would be to try and make Obama look like a terrorist to try and sway the undecideds over to McCain's side. Now I honestly don't believe that the Republicans actually believe that he is in fact a terrorist but they have been doing little things like pronounce his whole name at rallies(Barack Hussein Obama) even at a rally down here in Estero, Florida they got the sheriff Mike Scott to appear and talk about Obama's middle name(Scott is now under Federal investigation for appearing at the rally and influencing voters with is police uniform, which is Illegal) Them(the republicans) have also been trying to link Obama to William Ayers(was a domestic terrorist) who 40 years ago co founded the radical left organization the Weather Underground, which conducted a campaign of bombing public buildings during the 1960s(when Obama was 8) Through all of McCain's and Palin's rallies the past couple of weeks its been: "Obama is a terrorist" "Obama is friends with terrorist" "Obama is fiends with Bill Ayers and pals around with terrorists". Most Americans are idiotic and very ignorant(especially republicans) and you are wondering why mostly republicans, well because most republicans are conservative and church going people and if they can be brain washed by religion and and believe anything that comes out of a bible or out of preachers mouth than they are going to probably going to believe whatever there presidential candidate is going to tell them. So the past week at McCain and Palin rallies there supporters have yelled out such ignorant things as: "Obama is a terrorist" "He is an Arab" "Treason" "Traitor" and such hateful things as "Kill Him" and "Bomb Obama". It honestly makes me sick to my stomach to hear fucking stupid ass people say such ignorant and hateful things as that I mean even if you don't want him to be president or if you don't like him as a public official you don't go around and spout of such things it only shows that you have absolutely no respect for anyone. I can't believe so many of these people populate America and the world were are truly a species destined to completely destroy ourselves(check out the movie Idiocracy) but seriously I can't believe this is happening. It is all McCain and Palin's fault that this is evening happening. I am at least content to see that McCain has seen that this is going way to far as proof by the video of a guy telling McCain that he was going to having a baby soon and that he was afraid to raise this child in an Obama administration but McCain actually said that Obama was a genuinely nice guy and someone that they shouldn't be afraid to have as president to which the crowd booed him. Another instance happened where a lady didn't want Obama as president because he is an "Arab" and McCain quickly said "No No No Obama is a nice family man that I just happen to disagree with" They have finally realized that they have gone to far and they are now trying to put out the hate flames the they have ignited but is it too late? I am afraid that what the McCain campaign has started can not be reversed and may lead to a possible attack on Obama's family and himself and I am saddened to see how many people just blindly follow someone of power.
Now on to a much happier and less rantic note, my last few days have been very enjoyable and have made me happy for my future.
Wednesday October 8, 2008
I am not going to go into much detail in the first two days of my blog vacation because if I did it would take me all night and it would to long and no one would read it, Hell I am one of the only ones to completely read Chris' long ones.
The previous night I didn't get to sleep until 4 in the morning which sucked when I had to get up at 8 to be an my interview for Super Target at 9. I got there with 3 minutes to spare but ended up waiting for 20 minutes for someone to finally come out and get me. I sat down in his office and we started to talk, he asked me the usual questions along with some situational things.(I have become an expert at answering interview questions, I know all the key words that they wanna hear and situations they wanna hear about) so I aced it like I always do and we started talking about availability and I informed him that I was no longer available at anytime like it said on my application that I filled out when I was still jobless. but I told him I only work nights at the restaurant I got hired at which was perfect because he told me that he wanted to bring me on in the morning on his team to setup the store before it opens so I would be working like 4a.m.-10 or 11a.m. which I am fine with. He concluded the interview by telling me that I was pretty much hired but I still had to comeback for a second interview with the store manager. So after that great news I headed back home to take a nap so that I would be a least a little bit rested for the training I was scheduled to start at 4p.m. at the restaurant. When I got there I was surprised to find out that they were previewing a new menu and all the employees were there to taste and give there critiques as we all sat down at a couple tables in the dining room I was busy reading a small manual I was given while everyone got ready to taste. Everything that came out wasn't really my cup of tea so I didn't try anything(it's not like I have to try to sell the meal thats the servers job I just deliver) also after getting there I saw that over half of the staff is Jamaican now I am not a racist(I mean really I want a Half African-American as president) but I just can't understand them that well plus I was going to be learning from the one food runner that has been there for over two years his actually was pretty good, good enough to understand, but a server(Sherry) did most of the showing me around which was cool because she spoke fluent English and she is really nice. It hit around 5p.m. when I finally got my work shirt, I changed and got ready for service. Through out most of the night all I did was observe and tried to memorize everything like the table layout and the seat numbers which I had down by the end of the night. Now when I worked at Blue Water Bistro slow was like 75-100 reservations but on my first day at Rosie Spoonbills we only served like 15 people which I guess is a good night for someone to train on because when we weren't running I was learning. We reached a point in the night when I was so bored that the two servers asked me to help them roll silverware, it was fun and passed the time quickly at about 8p.m. I was approached by the hostess and was told I could go home because there were no more reservations in the books. After I got home I pretty much went right to sleep after posting a two sentence blog I posted as I fell asleep.
Thursday October 9, 2008
Today there wasn't much planned except another day of work. I didn't get up until I was woken up by my mom at around noon. I didn't do much except catch up on some podcasts as well as Countdown with Keith Olberman(one of my new favorite shows.) I noticed it was closing in on 4p.m.(the time I had to be at work) so I quickly got ready and headed out.(also earlier I got a call from target and i set up the second interview for Friday at 10) When I got to the restaurant I found out that staff eats everyday at 4 before service begins and today we were having fries and a french dip which is thinly sliced beef cooked in a delicious Au Jus sauce(Google it) after a light dinner we were all ready for work. Again it was a slow day yet a bit better than the day before. During the waiting periods I noticed that there was a new face behind the counter as a chef we sort of nodded to each other and then begin to talk he is a black guy so I automatically assumed he was Jamaican but I was relieved when I heard an American accent come out of his mouth. Finally I thought to my self someone to talk to so during the many slow moments we would just talk about different things like politics(who we talked to with another chef a white female which is very rare) but we also talked about where we were from(him Wisconsin, me Michigan) and about football and how Michigan beat Wisconsin the week before, then we started talking about poker and how he loves playing and sometimes plays at the dog track in Bonita. I also got to talk to the Executive who also is a really cool guy and someone I will be able to talk to when not actually working. My night ended at around 9 and I went home and caught up on internet routines. The next day was Eric's birthday and Jeremy and I planned to hang out at his house that night I also planned to hang out at Jeremy's until then. Shortly after I was getting ready to head to bed I got a call from Eric saying that I need to get Jeremy and get to Eric's, I was ok let me get a shower and I will be over there asap so I was at Jeremy's by 11 and we gathered the gear(Rock Band 2) and headed down to Eric's. The plan was to wake up at 9 so I could get down to Coconut in time for my interview and then back to Eric's before heading out to get his "Super T.V.". So we had to go to sleep after an hour or so of talking we all managed to shut up long enough to make it to sleep before it got too late. The final plans were that they were coming down to Coco. with me walk around until I was done than get Eric's "Super T.V." at Best Buy.
Friday October 10, 2008
We all managed to get up with enough time to get ready and down to Coco. We all made our way to Target me for an interview them to look at Blu Ray's I had to wait another 15 minutes before I got my interview started(I guess they don't do job offerings on Friday's and they couldn't get a hold of the manager to sit me doawn and do it) so it ended up me and this rather manly lady sitting at a Pizza Hut Express table to do my second interview. Again I aced it and she asked me to sit and wait while she tried to find the manager(the one that calls the shots) I waited about ten minutes when she came back unsuccessful so as we were trying to figure out what to do she said she would give him one last call and to my luck he answered so I sat back down and waited for him to show up. Once he did we headed to his office and talked a bit about what the job entails and I was asked for like the fourth time if I would be able to be productive at 4a.m. after working at the restaurant until 10p.m. and I answered with a confident "of course", he then told me he would "give me a whirl" so we went out so that I could fill out papers but the lady in charge of that was busy processing paychecks so we figured that they could process new employs on Fridays and we set up an appointment for Monday in between of me running my mom around to doctors. After finding out officially I was hired I went out to find Eric and Jeremy(they were at Barnes and Noble) I went to pick them up and head over to Best Buy so that Eric could buy his "Super T.V.". You may have been wondering why I keep mentioning this "Super T.V." well it has been hyped up for like two weeks all Eric has been talking about was this fucking T.V. even the night before he kept saying it's the "Eve of the Super T.V." and it's the "Dawn of the Super T.V." I tell you this because Eric after we got to Best Buy decided that he DIDN'T WANT TO BUY IT!! Jeremy and I couldn't believe that Eric was actually doing and saying this so after much convincing Jeremy and I tried to do Eric just wasn't going to buy it(SIGH) so we went Asian Chao for lunch(YUM) and then headed back to Eric's to play a little RB2 before he had to go to work and Jeremy and I went to Jeremy's. After a lot of RB and a few drum achievements Eric got ready for work and we got ready to head north. When we got to Jeremy's we started to talking with his mom about certain people who is being a big FUCKING JEW about his money(No not Eric LOL) and was being a complete FUCKING asshole(Jeremy's Father) after the conversation Jeremy and I started to watch the last few episodes of LOST. Jeremy got to see Libby and Ana Lucia get killed by Michael(Wow is everyone named Michael a Douche hahaha) also the four toed statue and the explosion of the Swan hatch for the first time. About a quarter of the way through the finale I passed out.
Saturday October 11, 2008
When we woke up we finished the finale and after a short conversation with his mom I left for home. I got home around noon and thought I would catch up on a lot of social networking and Digg stories, also podcasts and Countdown after all that it was time work once more. I got ready and left at a quarter til 5. When I got there I asked when I would start making tips and Jo Ann the manager said that she already put me on for tips she also told me that I was actually making $10 an hour(I smiled at that) and she also informed me that I was the only food runner for the night and it being a Saturday I was quite scared but after a little reassurance I was ok with it especially after hearing there were only about 35 reservations and there was a 22 top which accounts for most of the reservations, which means I would get all those out of the way at one time. As the night progressed I talked to the executive chef a little bit more and found out that he is a GAMER!! and likes all kinds of music(he was singing B.Y.O.B by S.O.D so I had to ask) awesome someone I can relate too. A lot of our conversation consisted of games specifically MMO's(he is a WOWer and I had to throw in FF11 in the convo. as well as L.O.T.R.O) after game talk we talked about bands we liked I mentioned Shinedown and he agreed I also mentioned Coheed ans Cambria which I got a reply of "I am going to check them out". Later in the night he asked if I was going to school to which my reply was "No I graduated this year" he congratulated me and asked where I had went and I told him Estero High and he said oh I thought you graduated college, he said that I seem older than I actually am. I asked what it was that made him think that and he said that it was my demeanor, I took it as a great compliment cause I always thought that I was very mature and intelligent for my age(at least people notice) so after a not so bad night all by my self at food runner I left at about ten to nine. When I got home I some routine and started this blog at 10:30 and it is now 2:42, yea I had a couple breaks in between but damn. I am also at 3175 words most definitely my record now that you are you caught up with my life I hope you enjoyed your self, I know I have so Good Night or Good Morning or Have a Nice Afternoon(I don't know when the Fuck people read this)
but I am a little tired and my hands and wrists are killing me and yet I keep typing for whatever reason. I shouldn't still be typing, maybe I am trying to up my word count. Although I love how I am trying to figure out what I am doing does this mean I am going crazy it is possible, I mean no where near Chris' level but I am getting there(no offense Chris). OK seriously I need to get off it is 2:48 and I am still typing................
Peace Out!(please read it all even if it takes 4 different sessions)
and leave lots of comments:-)
Peace Out Again!
3329 Woo Hoo
wait that's now
3335 wait I mean
3349 oh wait....... Never mind Fuck It
Peace Out!
3348
During my 4 days and 3 blogless nights, my life has taken a very unexpected but needed turn. The last blog that I wrote was all about how sad I was and how I have been just waiting for something to change and finally it has and I am so happy because everything is starting to fall in place just the way I had hoped it. Now if the rest goes the way I want it I will be living with Eric and Jeremy by February of next year. Which is about 4 months away and I can't wait. With that said I want to just get into something brief before I start from Wednesday.
OK now I didn't want to get into politics that much but in the past couple days somethings have happened and somethings have been said and I can't ignore it any longer. I will now be going into rant mode so anything I say can't be held against me and if you are a Republican I suggest looking away and just skipping this paragraph.
So the past few weeks the economy has been going to shit and ever since McCain supposedly put his campaign on pause to "rush" back to Washington and "fix" the economy which by the way took him like 22 hours to get there from New York(that is not what I would call rushing) but after the first presidential debate Obama's poll numbers have growing and McCain's dwindling. McCain knows that he can't compete with Obama when it comes to the economy and even at one point the aides of his campaign said that he wasn't going to talk about the economy anymore(which is a terrible idea considering that the economy is the most important issue right now) so anyway since McCain has realized that he is probably going to lose to Obama so they have resorted to their last ditch effort and that would be to try and make Obama look like a terrorist to try and sway the undecideds over to McCain's side. Now I honestly don't believe that the Republicans actually believe that he is in fact a terrorist but they have been doing little things like pronounce his whole name at rallies(Barack Hussein Obama) even at a rally down here in Estero, Florida they got the sheriff Mike Scott to appear and talk about Obama's middle name(Scott is now under Federal investigation for appearing at the rally and influencing voters with is police uniform, which is Illegal) Them(the republicans) have also been trying to link Obama to William Ayers(was a domestic terrorist) who 40 years ago co founded the radical left organization the Weather Underground, which conducted a campaign of bombing public buildings during the 1960s(when Obama was 8) Through all of McCain's and Palin's rallies the past couple of weeks its been: "Obama is a terrorist" "Obama is friends with terrorist" "Obama is fiends with Bill Ayers and pals around with terrorists". Most Americans are idiotic and very ignorant(especially republicans) and you are wondering why mostly republicans, well because most republicans are conservative and church going people and if they can be brain washed by religion and and believe anything that comes out of a bible or out of preachers mouth than they are going to probably going to believe whatever there presidential candidate is going to tell them. So the past week at McCain and Palin rallies there supporters have yelled out such ignorant things as: "Obama is a terrorist" "He is an Arab" "Treason" "Traitor" and such hateful things as "Kill Him" and "Bomb Obama". It honestly makes me sick to my stomach to hear fucking stupid ass people say such ignorant and hateful things as that I mean even if you don't want him to be president or if you don't like him as a public official you don't go around and spout of such things it only shows that you have absolutely no respect for anyone. I can't believe so many of these people populate America and the world were are truly a species destined to completely destroy ourselves(check out the movie Idiocracy) but seriously I can't believe this is happening. It is all McCain and Palin's fault that this is evening happening. I am at least content to see that McCain has seen that this is going way to far as proof by the video of a guy telling McCain that he was going to having a baby soon and that he was afraid to raise this child in an Obama administration but McCain actually said that Obama was a genuinely nice guy and someone that they shouldn't be afraid to have as president to which the crowd booed him. Another instance happened where a lady didn't want Obama as president because he is an "Arab" and McCain quickly said "No No No Obama is a nice family man that I just happen to disagree with" They have finally realized that they have gone to far and they are now trying to put out the hate flames the they have ignited but is it too late? I am afraid that what the McCain campaign has started can not be reversed and may lead to a possible attack on Obama's family and himself and I am saddened to see how many people just blindly follow someone of power.
Now on to a much happier and less rantic note, my last few days have been very enjoyable and have made me happy for my future.
Wednesday October 8, 2008
I am not going to go into much detail in the first two days of my blog vacation because if I did it would take me all night and it would to long and no one would read it, Hell I am one of the only ones to completely read Chris' long ones.
The previous night I didn't get to sleep until 4 in the morning which sucked when I had to get up at 8 to be an my interview for Super Target at 9. I got there with 3 minutes to spare but ended up waiting for 20 minutes for someone to finally come out and get me. I sat down in his office and we started to talk, he asked me the usual questions along with some situational things.(I have become an expert at answering interview questions, I know all the key words that they wanna hear and situations they wanna hear about) so I aced it like I always do and we started talking about availability and I informed him that I was no longer available at anytime like it said on my application that I filled out when I was still jobless. but I told him I only work nights at the restaurant I got hired at which was perfect because he told me that he wanted to bring me on in the morning on his team to setup the store before it opens so I would be working like 4a.m.-10 or 11a.m. which I am fine with. He concluded the interview by telling me that I was pretty much hired but I still had to comeback for a second interview with the store manager. So after that great news I headed back home to take a nap so that I would be a least a little bit rested for the training I was scheduled to start at 4p.m. at the restaurant. When I got there I was surprised to find out that they were previewing a new menu and all the employees were there to taste and give there critiques as we all sat down at a couple tables in the dining room I was busy reading a small manual I was given while everyone got ready to taste. Everything that came out wasn't really my cup of tea so I didn't try anything(it's not like I have to try to sell the meal thats the servers job I just deliver) also after getting there I saw that over half of the staff is Jamaican now I am not a racist(I mean really I want a Half African-American as president) but I just can't understand them that well plus I was going to be learning from the one food runner that has been there for over two years his actually was pretty good, good enough to understand, but a server(Sherry) did most of the showing me around which was cool because she spoke fluent English and she is really nice. It hit around 5p.m. when I finally got my work shirt, I changed and got ready for service. Through out most of the night all I did was observe and tried to memorize everything like the table layout and the seat numbers which I had down by the end of the night. Now when I worked at Blue Water Bistro slow was like 75-100 reservations but on my first day at Rosie Spoonbills we only served like 15 people which I guess is a good night for someone to train on because when we weren't running I was learning. We reached a point in the night when I was so bored that the two servers asked me to help them roll silverware, it was fun and passed the time quickly at about 8p.m. I was approached by the hostess and was told I could go home because there were no more reservations in the books. After I got home I pretty much went right to sleep after posting a two sentence blog I posted as I fell asleep.
Thursday October 9, 2008
Today there wasn't much planned except another day of work. I didn't get up until I was woken up by my mom at around noon. I didn't do much except catch up on some podcasts as well as Countdown with Keith Olberman(one of my new favorite shows.) I noticed it was closing in on 4p.m.(the time I had to be at work) so I quickly got ready and headed out.(also earlier I got a call from target and i set up the second interview for Friday at 10) When I got to the restaurant I found out that staff eats everyday at 4 before service begins and today we were having fries and a french dip which is thinly sliced beef cooked in a delicious Au Jus sauce(Google it) after a light dinner we were all ready for work. Again it was a slow day yet a bit better than the day before. During the waiting periods I noticed that there was a new face behind the counter as a chef we sort of nodded to each other and then begin to talk he is a black guy so I automatically assumed he was Jamaican but I was relieved when I heard an American accent come out of his mouth. Finally I thought to my self someone to talk to so during the many slow moments we would just talk about different things like politics(who we talked to with another chef a white female which is very rare) but we also talked about where we were from(him Wisconsin, me Michigan) and about football and how Michigan beat Wisconsin the week before, then we started talking about poker and how he loves playing and sometimes plays at the dog track in Bonita. I also got to talk to the Executive who also is a really cool guy and someone I will be able to talk to when not actually working. My night ended at around 9 and I went home and caught up on internet routines. The next day was Eric's birthday and Jeremy and I planned to hang out at his house that night I also planned to hang out at Jeremy's until then. Shortly after I was getting ready to head to bed I got a call from Eric saying that I need to get Jeremy and get to Eric's, I was ok let me get a shower and I will be over there asap so I was at Jeremy's by 11 and we gathered the gear(Rock Band 2) and headed down to Eric's. The plan was to wake up at 9 so I could get down to Coconut in time for my interview and then back to Eric's before heading out to get his "Super T.V.". So we had to go to sleep after an hour or so of talking we all managed to shut up long enough to make it to sleep before it got too late. The final plans were that they were coming down to Coco. with me walk around until I was done than get Eric's "Super T.V." at Best Buy.
Friday October 10, 2008
We all managed to get up with enough time to get ready and down to Coco. We all made our way to Target me for an interview them to look at Blu Ray's I had to wait another 15 minutes before I got my interview started(I guess they don't do job offerings on Friday's and they couldn't get a hold of the manager to sit me doawn and do it) so it ended up me and this rather manly lady sitting at a Pizza Hut Express table to do my second interview. Again I aced it and she asked me to sit and wait while she tried to find the manager(the one that calls the shots) I waited about ten minutes when she came back unsuccessful so as we were trying to figure out what to do she said she would give him one last call and to my luck he answered so I sat back down and waited for him to show up. Once he did we headed to his office and talked a bit about what the job entails and I was asked for like the fourth time if I would be able to be productive at 4a.m. after working at the restaurant until 10p.m. and I answered with a confident "of course", he then told me he would "give me a whirl" so we went out so that I could fill out papers but the lady in charge of that was busy processing paychecks so we figured that they could process new employs on Fridays and we set up an appointment for Monday in between of me running my mom around to doctors. After finding out officially I was hired I went out to find Eric and Jeremy(they were at Barnes and Noble) I went to pick them up and head over to Best Buy so that Eric could buy his "Super T.V.". You may have been wondering why I keep mentioning this "Super T.V." well it has been hyped up for like two weeks all Eric has been talking about was this fucking T.V. even the night before he kept saying it's the "Eve of the Super T.V." and it's the "Dawn of the Super T.V." I tell you this because Eric after we got to Best Buy decided that he DIDN'T WANT TO BUY IT!! Jeremy and I couldn't believe that Eric was actually doing and saying this so after much convincing Jeremy and I tried to do Eric just wasn't going to buy it(SIGH) so we went Asian Chao for lunch(YUM) and then headed back to Eric's to play a little RB2 before he had to go to work and Jeremy and I went to Jeremy's. After a lot of RB and a few drum achievements Eric got ready for work and we got ready to head north. When we got to Jeremy's we started to talking with his mom about certain people who is being a big FUCKING JEW about his money(No not Eric LOL) and was being a complete FUCKING asshole(Jeremy's Father) after the conversation Jeremy and I started to watch the last few episodes of LOST. Jeremy got to see Libby and Ana Lucia get killed by Michael(Wow is everyone named Michael a Douche hahaha) also the four toed statue and the explosion of the Swan hatch for the first time. About a quarter of the way through the finale I passed out.
Saturday October 11, 2008
When we woke up we finished the finale and after a short conversation with his mom I left for home. I got home around noon and thought I would catch up on a lot of social networking and Digg stories, also podcasts and Countdown after all that it was time work once more. I got ready and left at a quarter til 5. When I got there I asked when I would start making tips and Jo Ann the manager said that she already put me on for tips she also told me that I was actually making $10 an hour(I smiled at that) and she also informed me that I was the only food runner for the night and it being a Saturday I was quite scared but after a little reassurance I was ok with it especially after hearing there were only about 35 reservations and there was a 22 top which accounts for most of the reservations, which means I would get all those out of the way at one time. As the night progressed I talked to the executive chef a little bit more and found out that he is a GAMER!! and likes all kinds of music(he was singing B.Y.O.B by S.O.D so I had to ask) awesome someone I can relate too. A lot of our conversation consisted of games specifically MMO's(he is a WOWer and I had to throw in FF11 in the convo. as well as L.O.T.R.O) after game talk we talked about bands we liked I mentioned Shinedown and he agreed I also mentioned Coheed ans Cambria which I got a reply of "I am going to check them out". Later in the night he asked if I was going to school to which my reply was "No I graduated this year" he congratulated me and asked where I had went and I told him Estero High and he said oh I thought you graduated college, he said that I seem older than I actually am. I asked what it was that made him think that and he said that it was my demeanor, I took it as a great compliment cause I always thought that I was very mature and intelligent for my age(at least people notice) so after a not so bad night all by my self at food runner I left at about ten to nine. When I got home I some routine and started this blog at 10:30 and it is now 2:42, yea I had a couple breaks in between but damn. I am also at 3175 words most definitely my record now that you are you caught up with my life I hope you enjoyed your self, I know I have so Good Night or Good Morning or Have a Nice Afternoon(I don't know when the Fuck people read this)
but I am a little tired and my hands and wrists are killing me and yet I keep typing for whatever reason. I shouldn't still be typing, maybe I am trying to up my word count. Although I love how I am trying to figure out what I am doing does this mean I am going crazy it is possible, I mean no where near Chris' level but I am getting there(no offense Chris). OK seriously I need to get off it is 2:48 and I am still typing................
Peace Out!(please read it all even if it takes 4 different sessions)
and leave lots of comments:-)
Peace Out Again!
3329 Woo Hoo
wait that's now
3335 wait I mean
3349 oh wait....... Never mind Fuck It
Peace Out!
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Friday, October 10, 2008
I am Sorry!!
I know I didn't write a blog last night because I was tired, I had full intentions to catch all you guys up on my past two days but something came up and I am now at Eric's (its his birthday)(so everyone sing HAPPY BIRTHDAY for him) so I will blog tomorrow when I get home from jeremy's it will be extra long so until then...
Peace Out!
Peace Out!
Thursday, October 9, 2008
Um...... Zzzzzzz
Listening to Shinedown- The Sound of Madness. And drifting into a deep sleee.......p. Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzž
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
I Love...
All my friends it is 3:15 in the morning I should have been asleep 2 hours ago but I just wanted to say that I LOVE my best friends
Jeremy Gibbs
Christopher Hays
Eric Boosinger
I love all three of you and if you didn't know that than shame on you. I hope that years down the road all four of us will meet up together as sucessful guys with sucessful careers and families and hang out and talk about past experiences and the crazy shenanigans we had as friends. And if it takes a phone call to prove how much we care about each other then so be it(Jeremy) I will call you tomorrow but just know that I have all of your backs no matter what with or without a phonecall.
So I need some sleep.
Peace Out! With Much Love
Jeremy Gibbs
Christopher Hays
Eric Boosinger
I love all three of you and if you didn't know that than shame on you. I hope that years down the road all four of us will meet up together as sucessful guys with sucessful careers and families and hang out and talk about past experiences and the crazy shenanigans we had as friends. And if it takes a phone call to prove how much we care about each other then so be it(Jeremy) I will call you tomorrow but just know that I have all of your backs no matter what with or without a phonecall.
So I need some sleep.
Peace Out! With Much Love
Tuesday, October 7, 2008
(Insert Title Here)....
I couldn't think of a title so what I have there should be suffice until I think of one but I doubt I will cause there was really nothing significant enough that happened to me to make a clever and witty title out of.
I really don't have much to say today.
So today I first woke up when my mom left to go somewhere then I went back to bed until about 11:30 when I finally got out of bed I noticed that I had a missed call and it was an unfamiliar number I also noticed that person left a voice mail. I usually just call the person back before listening to the v.mail but I thought I am tired I will just listen. The guy on the other end said that he was calling from the Super Target at CoconutPoint Mall and asked if was interested in a job. I immediately got excited so I called back and got in touch with a manager after a short conversation we agreed on a 9:00 A.M. interview, which is really early for me but I will deal. You might remember yesterday I said that I would be starting training today but changes were made because tonight is the busiest of the week due to the live music that plays on Tuesdays, which they call Unplugged. Well anyway I got a call from Jo Ann the manager and she insisted that I come in tomorrow when its not so busy, I agree that its a better idea. So tomorrow will be very busy between an interview at 9 and training at 4 so I will for sure have lots to blog about tomorrow night. Other than those calls the only other things I did was catch up on Heroes and it was a Fucking(I try to keep this blog PG but it was a good episode) awesome episode there was a lot answers but also more questions were posed. I finished the episode just in time for the debate(I had very high hopes for the entertainment value of this debate) which it came through kinda. McCain was a friggin idiot like he always is and Obama was amazing like he always is. But what made my experience all the better was the constant conversation with Jeremy as we bashed McCain and praised Obama all the way through the debate(its so much funner when you have someone else there to make fun of someone, if you do it by yourself you come of sad and weird). I also was texting Lauren O'dea through out the debate, it was very interesting because she is a Republican(AGGHH!) so I had to try to control myself and not get mad or mean about it, even though she kept calling Obama an idiot, I can't even understand how anybody could see that but I guess I am just that far left. Now I am writing this blog and needing to get some sleep because I have to get up earlier than 9 for the first since high school.
Oh and I as I write this I am listening to Shinedown's newest C.D.(the one with Devour on it)<---(that was for Eric LOL) and it is really good and its getting me even more excited for the concert on Dec. 5(I can't fucking wait) So tomorrow hopefully will be a long blog cause I know how much you like reading these HaHa.
So until next time.
Peace Out!
I really don't have much to say today.
So today I first woke up when my mom left to go somewhere then I went back to bed until about 11:30 when I finally got out of bed I noticed that I had a missed call and it was an unfamiliar number I also noticed that person left a voice mail. I usually just call the person back before listening to the v.mail but I thought I am tired I will just listen. The guy on the other end said that he was calling from the Super Target at CoconutPoint Mall and asked if was interested in a job. I immediately got excited so I called back and got in touch with a manager after a short conversation we agreed on a 9:00 A.M. interview, which is really early for me but I will deal. You might remember yesterday I said that I would be starting training today but changes were made because tonight is the busiest of the week due to the live music that plays on Tuesdays, which they call Unplugged. Well anyway I got a call from Jo Ann the manager and she insisted that I come in tomorrow when its not so busy, I agree that its a better idea. So tomorrow will be very busy between an interview at 9 and training at 4 so I will for sure have lots to blog about tomorrow night. Other than those calls the only other things I did was catch up on Heroes and it was a Fucking(I try to keep this blog PG but it was a good episode) awesome episode there was a lot answers but also more questions were posed. I finished the episode just in time for the debate(I had very high hopes for the entertainment value of this debate) which it came through kinda. McCain was a friggin idiot like he always is and Obama was amazing like he always is. But what made my experience all the better was the constant conversation with Jeremy as we bashed McCain and praised Obama all the way through the debate(its so much funner when you have someone else there to make fun of someone, if you do it by yourself you come of sad and weird). I also was texting Lauren O'dea through out the debate, it was very interesting because she is a Republican(AGGHH!) so I had to try to control myself and not get mad or mean about it, even though she kept calling Obama an idiot, I can't even understand how anybody could see that but I guess I am just that far left. Now I am writing this blog and needing to get some sleep because I have to get up earlier than 9 for the first since high school.
Oh and I as I write this I am listening to Shinedown's newest C.D.(the one with Devour on it)<---(that was for Eric LOL) and it is really good and its getting me even more excited for the concert on Dec. 5(I can't fucking wait) So tomorrow hopefully will be a long blog cause I know how much you like reading these HaHa.
So until next time.
Peace Out!
Waiting...Waiting...Waiting....
I didn't write a blog last night and I apologize, but I have been a little down. I have been waiting to start my job for almost a week and it has seemed so much longer than that. Ever since I was informed that I got the job I couldn't help but thinking about my all my future plans like: being home alone for thanksgiving and finally getting away from my family for a week, and black Friday with Jeremy and Eric, getting a new laptop and an Xbox 360, and then eventually saving up some money to move out and away from this draining environment. As the week progressed and I finally realized that I didn't have the money quite yet and that I was still stuck in this house like a prisoner I started getting depressed. With the exception of hanging out with my cousin, that's how I have felt all weekend... Drained of all life and excitement. As I look at the clock and see that it is technically Tuesday, the day I start training I get a little excited and happy but not as happy as I will be when I start making tips and start receiving cash almost every other day :D. But until then I am still stuck in this black hole of a house. I also find my self not wanting to write my blog because I honestly do absolutely nothing except wake up really late and just watch T.V. or surf the internet and listen to music. But hopefully all that will change with the introduction of my job into my everyday life. While I am on the topic of not writing blogs... Jeremy what the HELL write your blog if you stop I will have to come over to your house and force you(Chris help me out we don't want him to be like Ryan). Also Jeremy if your reading this, the first thing I am doing when I fill my gas tank is coming to your house for a couple days(If its alright with your parents) because I gotta get out of this house. It is 1 A.M. and I am tired not really but I have work tomorrow(wow its been a long time since I said that) and hopefully after tomorrow I will be in a much happier mood and will have lots to blog about. So until that time....
Peace Out!
As an Atheist I hold the right to censor the G word, if you have a problem with that than FUCK YOU!
Peace Out Again!
Peace Out!
A court is in session, a verdict is in
No appeal on the docket today
Just my own sin
The walls are cold and pale
The cage made of steel
Screams fill the room
Alone I drop and kneel
Silence now the sound
My breath the only motion around
Demons cluttering around
My face showing no emotion
Shackled by my sentence
Expecting no return
Here there is no penance
My skin begins to burn
(And I said oh) So I held my head up high
Hiding hate that burns inside
Which only fuels their selfish pride
(And I said oh) We're all held captive
Out from the sun
A sun that shines on only some
We the meek are all in one
I hear a thunder in the distance
See a vision of a cross
I feel the pain that was given
On that sad day of loss
A lion roars in the darkness
Only he holds the key
A light to free me from my burden
And grant me life eternally
Should have been dead
On a Sunday morning
Banging my head
No time for mourning
Ain't got no time{repeat}
(And I said oh) So I held my head up high
Hiding hate that burns inside
Which only fuels their selfish pride
(And I said oh) We're all held captive
Out from the sun
A sun that shines on only some
We the meek are all in one
[Guitar break]
I cry out to G**
Seeking only his decision
Gabriel stands and confirms
I've created my own prison
I cry out to G**
Seeking only his decision
Gabriel stands and confirms
I've created my own prison
(And I said oh) So I held my head up high
Hiding hate that burns inside
Which only fuels their selfish pride
(And I said oh) We're all held captive
Out from the sun
A sun that shines on only some
We the meek are all in one
(And I said oh) So I held my head up high
Hiding hate that burns inside
Which only fuels their selfish pride
((And I said oh) We're all held captive
Out from the sun
A sun that shines on only some
We the meek are all in one) I created I created
My own prison
Should've been dead on a Sunday morning
banging my head
No time for mourning
Ain't got no time
As an Atheist I hold the right to censor the G word, if you have a problem with that than FUCK YOU!
Peace Out Again!
Saturday, October 4, 2008
I Am Back And As Tired As Ever!!/Fuck iTunes!!!
So last night I left around 7:30 P.M. as my last post said. I headed down to Naples to chill with my cousin. So I am just gonna dive into the events that followed.
So I got down to my aunt's house around 8 P.M. to find that my cousin was playing basketball with a few other people that I didn't know, I waited until they were done with there game and then joined in myself. After about half an hour of playing we decided we were all done and my cousin and I walked back to the house. We really do much except talk and catch up on a whole assortment of things. At around 4:00 A.M. we started watching Criss Angel: Mindfreak Ondemand, which got us to 5:00 A.M. at that time we realized that we needed some sleep. We set our alarms for 10:30 because I had to be home for something I don't know what, but anyway we finally got up around 11 and my cousin Danny called his mom and informed us that everyone was meeting up at my grandmas house. We waited until we heard from our moms when they left so we made our way up there(we also had some fishing poles to fish the pond behind my grandmas) When we got there we talked to our parents and then finally made our way back to try and catch something. No Luck nothing was caught but I honestly didn't spend much time fishing I was having too much fun with my baby cousin. Then I went inside and talked to the familia as well as watched some college football. At around 3 people started to head out so I thought it was a good idea too. But before I could leave my Aunt Linda asked if I could go to her house and help with her gigantic mattress that she wanted to turn around. So after that was done and after I got home I jumped in the shower caught up on a lot of surfing and social networking. And then I found out that after I updated my iTunes it completely wiped everything on my iTunes so I had to totally rebuild my iTunes. Needless to say I am not to happy right now. It is 8:30 P.M. now and I need some sleep so I am going to go in my room watch Kimbo Slice and then some SNL then pass out:D
And hopefully I can meet up with my cousin again to go fishing tomorrow cause I have absolutely nothing else planned except Sunday football.
I am sorry if tonight's blog was short and boring, I think I might be running out of ways to make my boring day seem cool and exciting, maybe I just need some sleep. Well until tomorrow....
Peace Out!
So I got down to my aunt's house around 8 P.M. to find that my cousin was playing basketball with a few other people that I didn't know, I waited until they were done with there game and then joined in myself. After about half an hour of playing we decided we were all done and my cousin and I walked back to the house. We really do much except talk and catch up on a whole assortment of things. At around 4:00 A.M. we started watching Criss Angel: Mindfreak Ondemand, which got us to 5:00 A.M. at that time we realized that we needed some sleep. We set our alarms for 10:30 because I had to be home for something I don't know what, but anyway we finally got up around 11 and my cousin Danny called his mom and informed us that everyone was meeting up at my grandmas house. We waited until we heard from our moms when they left so we made our way up there(we also had some fishing poles to fish the pond behind my grandmas) When we got there we talked to our parents and then finally made our way back to try and catch something. No Luck nothing was caught but I honestly didn't spend much time fishing I was having too much fun with my baby cousin. Then I went inside and talked to the familia as well as watched some college football. At around 3 people started to head out so I thought it was a good idea too. But before I could leave my Aunt Linda asked if I could go to her house and help with her gigantic mattress that she wanted to turn around. So after that was done and after I got home I jumped in the shower caught up on a lot of surfing and social networking. And then I found out that after I updated my iTunes it completely wiped everything on my iTunes so I had to totally rebuild my iTunes. Needless to say I am not to happy right now. It is 8:30 P.M. now and I need some sleep so I am going to go in my room watch Kimbo Slice and then some SNL then pass out:D
And hopefully I can meet up with my cousin again to go fishing tomorrow cause I have absolutely nothing else planned except Sunday football.
I am sorry if tonight's blog was short and boring, I think I might be running out of ways to make my boring day seem cool and exciting, maybe I just need some sleep. Well until tomorrow....
Peace Out!
Friday, October 3, 2008
I Got To Go, But Will Be Back Tomorrow!!
Real quick I cant blog tonight because I am going down to Naples to chill with my cousin and aunt and I don't think they have a computer :( but as soon as I get home I will blog about my adventure.
So Good Night and have a Pleasant Tomorrow.
Peace Out!
Oh and if you like bands like Paramore, The Cab, and others of that style I advise you to check out Hey Monday they have a video called Homecoming that is really good on YouTube and it doesn't hurt that the lead singer is HOT (yea she is a girl)
So Good Night and have a Pleasant Tomorrow.
Peace Out!
Oh and if you like bands like Paramore, The Cab, and others of that style I advise you to check out Hey Monday they have a video called Homecoming that is really good on YouTube and it doesn't hurt that the lead singer is HOT (yea she is a girl)
Thursday, October 2, 2008
"Me...I'm Rusted and Weathered, Barely Holding Together"
So as I start this blog I realize that there is still light outside and is still the day of the events that I will talk to you about later. There are a couple reasons for the unprecedented time stamp of this blog. One is the fact I wanna get this done before I sit down in front of my T.V. to watch the hopefully entertaining V.P. Debate at 9:00 P.M. tonight. And the other is I wanna be done with this if we have another party chat tonight so I don't have to stay up until 4 finishing it.
I Love Music. Because it always seems to be there when I am down and need to be cheered up.It's there when I am bored and allows me to zone out and do a lot thinking about numerous things. I seem to listen to music in phases, for about a month or two I will be stuck on a band or two or a general style of music until I either get bored and move on to something else or something drastic enough happens in my life to change my mood. In the wake of the past couple days events I have rediscovered a band that I loved back when I was in middle school (late 90's early 00's). There third C.D. was one of the first C.D.s that I had ever received and I listened to it nonstop. When I was young I couldn't comprehend the lyrics like a can now after many life experiences and 18 years of life. After listening to the C.D. and band once again after 8 years or so I realized some of the lyrics almost mirror my exact feelings as of right now in my life. I know that people can and will interpret anything they read or see to somehow fit there life, but I find the references to be uncannily true. Here is an excerpt from the title track song of the C.D. Weathered
If you didn't know, the band is Creed. Right now I am listening to this song on itunes and as I hear the lyrics sung with such a gritty voice and can't help to listen intently. You can skip this if you want but I just wanna try to analyze the lyrics according to my life.
I feel that I cant tame my mind cause I am always thinking(usually about anything and everything) I have actually stayed up all night due to too much thinking(I am not sure how many other people go through that). I also think I can't accept this life that's mine because I believe that I deserve more than this life that I have been living so far, I deserve to go to college, have a career, meet someone special, and have a family and die at an old and happy age. I don't want to accept this life of loneliness and utter failure which is why the longer I hang around here in this house the closer I get to the life that I don't want. As you may have gathered from my previous blogs that I am done living like this which plays into the chorus of the song. I am so rusted and weathered from this toxic environment that I have been living in for the past year or so and I am barely holding together. I try to hold on but I am so calloused from it all and that is why I feel so alone in this house it's almost as if I don't fit in and after it all I just feel like giving up. Before I get started on the past 24 hours of my life I will leave you with another excerpt from a song from the Weathered C.D.(don't worry I wont analyze) the song is called Don't Stop Dancing and I think is a beautiful song.
I never completed last nights blog but the only I did yesterday was fill out papers for my new job, oh and had a 2hour conversation with Chris, Jeremy, and Malerie. By the end of it, Chris and I were the only ones left so after about 15 minutes or so we decided that we both needed some sleep. I didn't get to bed until around 4:30 A.M. and was promptly woken up at 6:00 A.M. to go take out yard waste UGHH!! but I did it and went right back to sleep and didn't wake up until around noon. I waited around online surfing until 1:00 P.M. At that time I had to be on Bonita Beach Rd. for a drug test. After I got back I played some basketball and did some more surfing online and that is when I started feeling really tired... well i have been tired all day but now my eyelids were screaming CLOSE!! CLOSE!!! so I decided to take a nap for about an hour until both my parents got home simultaneously shortly after they left again to go watch my aunt bowl. So I am left here again by myself(which I like) to write this blog, cook dinner, and entertain myself. But soon the Debate will be on and that will occupy my time until 11:00 P.M. Then I will prob watch some T.V. and wait for a call from Chris.
Wow that was probably my shortest explanation of a days activities since I started this blog.
It's 8:00 now only one more hour.
So until tomorrow......
Peace Out!
I just wanna thank anybody who is an everyday reader(I know my friends are) but if there is anyone who found this blog randomly and for whatever reason read this...
Thank You
I Love Music. Because it always seems to be there when I am down and need to be cheered up.It's there when I am bored and allows me to zone out and do a lot thinking about numerous things. I seem to listen to music in phases, for about a month or two I will be stuck on a band or two or a general style of music until I either get bored and move on to something else or something drastic enough happens in my life to change my mood. In the wake of the past couple days events I have rediscovered a band that I loved back when I was in middle school (late 90's early 00's). There third C.D. was one of the first C.D.s that I had ever received and I listened to it nonstop. When I was young I couldn't comprehend the lyrics like a can now after many life experiences and 18 years of life. After listening to the C.D. and band once again after 8 years or so I realized some of the lyrics almost mirror my exact feelings as of right now in my life. I know that people can and will interpret anything they read or see to somehow fit there life, but I find the references to be uncannily true. Here is an excerpt from the title track song of the C.D. Weathered
I lie awake on a long, dark night
I can't seem to tame my mind
Slings and arrows are killing me inside
Maybe I can't accept the life that's mine
No I can't accept the life that's mine
Simple living is my desperate cry
Been trading love with indifference
yeah it suits me just fine
I try to hold on but I'm calloused to the bone
Maybe that's why I feel alone
Maybe that's why I feel so alone
Me…I'm rusted and weathered
Barely holding together
I'm covered with skin that peels and
it just won't heal
The sun shines and I can't avoid the light
I think I'm holding on to life too tight
Ashes to ashes and dust to dust
Sometimes I feel like giving up
Sometimes I feel like giving up
If you didn't know, the band is Creed. Right now I am listening to this song on itunes and as I hear the lyrics sung with such a gritty voice and can't help to listen intently. You can skip this if you want but I just wanna try to analyze the lyrics according to my life.
I feel that I cant tame my mind cause I am always thinking(usually about anything and everything) I have actually stayed up all night due to too much thinking(I am not sure how many other people go through that). I also think I can't accept this life that's mine because I believe that I deserve more than this life that I have been living so far, I deserve to go to college, have a career, meet someone special, and have a family and die at an old and happy age. I don't want to accept this life of loneliness and utter failure which is why the longer I hang around here in this house the closer I get to the life that I don't want. As you may have gathered from my previous blogs that I am done living like this which plays into the chorus of the song. I am so rusted and weathered from this toxic environment that I have been living in for the past year or so and I am barely holding together. I try to hold on but I am so calloused from it all and that is why I feel so alone in this house it's almost as if I don't fit in and after it all I just feel like giving up. Before I get started on the past 24 hours of my life I will leave you with another excerpt from a song from the Weathered C.D.(don't worry I wont analyze) the song is called Don't Stop Dancing and I think is a beautiful song.
At times life is wicked and I just can't
see the light
A silver lining sometimes isn't enough
To make some wrongs seem right
Whatever life brings
I've been through everything
And now I'm on my knees again
But I know I must go on
Although I hurt I must be strong
Because inside I know that many
feel this way
Children don't stop dancing
Believe you can fly
Away…away
At times life's unfair and you know
it's plain to see
I never completed last nights blog but the only I did yesterday was fill out papers for my new job, oh and had a 2hour conversation with Chris, Jeremy, and Malerie. By the end of it, Chris and I were the only ones left so after about 15 minutes or so we decided that we both needed some sleep. I didn't get to bed until around 4:30 A.M. and was promptly woken up at 6:00 A.M. to go take out yard waste UGHH!! but I did it and went right back to sleep and didn't wake up until around noon. I waited around online surfing until 1:00 P.M. At that time I had to be on Bonita Beach Rd. for a drug test. After I got back I played some basketball and did some more surfing online and that is when I started feeling really tired... well i have been tired all day but now my eyelids were screaming CLOSE!! CLOSE!!! so I decided to take a nap for about an hour until both my parents got home simultaneously shortly after they left again to go watch my aunt bowl. So I am left here again by myself(which I like) to write this blog, cook dinner, and entertain myself. But soon the Debate will be on and that will occupy my time until 11:00 P.M. Then I will prob watch some T.V. and wait for a call from Chris.
Wow that was probably my shortest explanation of a days activities since I started this blog.
It's 8:00 now only one more hour.
So until tomorrow......
Peace Out!
I just wanna thank anybody who is an everyday reader(I know my friends are) but if there is anyone who found this blog randomly and for whatever reason read this...
Thank You
The Beginning of A "New Beginning"
Before I get started I just wanted to say that this particular blog might get long, not as long as some of Chris' but probably my longest. The reason is a lot happened today not just physically but mentally. I thought about a lot through out today and I am not even sure I can come close to conveying everything that has gotten my mind running on overdrive. So as I begin I will try my hardest to just let my fingers do the talking that my brain can't.
At the end of last nights blog I said that today would be a New Beginning. At the time of that statement I didn't have a full grasp of what a true New Beginning might consist of and so I thought a lot about it and my present status as of right now and I have come up with something, a plan if you will that will enable me to reach a certain level of happiness with my situation. Cause right now I am far from happy with where I am at right now in my life. I do have certain aspects that seem to be getting better(like the fact that I now have a job) but in general I want so much more for myself than this. First what I believe will be able to garnish the title of a true "New Beginning". So for a new beginning I need to get out this house and away from my family especially from my sister and her whatever Michael Rush who I honestly would love to kill (honestly). I am just completely done with this life and I need a huge change or I fear that I might start to grow away from my family. Lately I just feel like I as an individual do not fit in with my family, I am so different than the rest of my immediate family. I am passionate about politics when my parents could careless. I think about everything from Physics, Religion, Science, History, and the Future of the world among many other things that I doubt many other people care about. I believe that I need a new family (Chris,Jeremy,and Eric I am talking to you) So that is why I decided to stay here in Florida while the rest of my family goes up to Michigan so that I can get a small taste of life by myself to see if it really is better than being surrounded people who I most of the time don't get along with.
So I had a lot more on my mind but after talking to Chris, Jeremy, and Malerie my hate induced rant has been reduced to now all I want to talk about is my day.
So here I go.
In Fact Since I was on the phone for two hours I will fill in the rest tomorrow
Cause I need to get off before my dad starts getting ready for and comes out yelling at me so
But I did have at great conversation with Chris, Jeremy, and Malerie and hope we can do it again tomorrow night..or I mean tomorrow morning :)
YaY!! for party chat!!!
To Be Continued..........
Peace Out!!
At the end of last nights blog I said that today would be a New Beginning. At the time of that statement I didn't have a full grasp of what a true New Beginning might consist of and so I thought a lot about it and my present status as of right now and I have come up with something, a plan if you will that will enable me to reach a certain level of happiness with my situation. Cause right now I am far from happy with where I am at right now in my life. I do have certain aspects that seem to be getting better(like the fact that I now have a job) but in general I want so much more for myself than this. First what I believe will be able to garnish the title of a true "New Beginning". So for a new beginning I need to get out this house and away from my family especially from my sister and her whatever Michael Rush who I honestly would love to kill (honestly). I am just completely done with this life and I need a huge change or I fear that I might start to grow away from my family. Lately I just feel like I as an individual do not fit in with my family, I am so different than the rest of my immediate family. I am passionate about politics when my parents could careless. I think about everything from Physics, Religion, Science, History, and the Future of the world among many other things that I doubt many other people care about. I believe that I need a new family (Chris,Jeremy,and Eric I am talking to you) So that is why I decided to stay here in Florida while the rest of my family goes up to Michigan so that I can get a small taste of life by myself to see if it really is better than being surrounded people who I most of the time don't get along with.
So I had a lot more on my mind but after talking to Chris, Jeremy, and Malerie my hate induced rant has been reduced to now all I want to talk about is my day.
So here I go.
In Fact Since I was on the phone for two hours I will fill in the rest tomorrow
Cause I need to get off before my dad starts getting ready for and comes out yelling at me so
But I did have at great conversation with Chris, Jeremy, and Malerie and hope we can do it again tomorrow night..or I mean tomorrow morning :)
YaY!! for party chat!!!
To Be Continued..........
Peace Out!!
Wednesday, October 1, 2008
I CAN'T FUCKING TAKE IT ANYMORE!!!!!
I can't continue to live in this household with my sister and the Fucking Asshole of a person who follows her every FUCKING command. If I continue to live here 1 of 2 things is gonna happen.
1. I AM GOING TO FUCKING KILL MYSELF JUST THAT I DON'T HAVE TO BE AROUND THIS FUCKING SHIT ANYMORE.
or,
2. I AM GOING TO KICK THE SHIT OUT OF MY SISTERS BITCH MICHAEL RUSH POSSIBLY FUCKING KILLING HIM. I might not purposefully kill him but all the RAGE and HATRED that has built up over the past year would not allow me to stop hitting him until his body is lifeless under my Hate filled punches.
So in the coming week as I start working, if I cease to Blog or contact any of you I am either Dead or in Jail so just keep that in mind.
Also if you have a solution to get around this(and Jeremy I have to hold back punching him for as long as I can) then please feel free to comment this post.
So until I post my daily blog later tonight...
PEACE THE FUCK OUT!!!
I Wish I Could Move Out Right NOW!!!
1. I AM GOING TO FUCKING KILL MYSELF JUST THAT I DON'T HAVE TO BE AROUND THIS FUCKING SHIT ANYMORE.
or,
2. I AM GOING TO KICK THE SHIT OUT OF MY SISTERS BITCH MICHAEL RUSH POSSIBLY FUCKING KILLING HIM. I might not purposefully kill him but all the RAGE and HATRED that has built up over the past year would not allow me to stop hitting him until his body is lifeless under my Hate filled punches.
So in the coming week as I start working, if I cease to Blog or contact any of you I am either Dead or in Jail so just keep that in mind.
Also if you have a solution to get around this(and Jeremy I have to hold back punching him for as long as I can) then please feel free to comment this post.
So until I post my daily blog later tonight...
PEACE THE FUCK OUT!!!
I Wish I Could Move Out Right NOW!!!
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