The Beginning of A "New Beginning"

Before I get started I just wanted to say that this particular blog might get long, not as long as some of Chris' but probably my longest. The reason is a lot happened today not just physically but mentally. I thought about a lot through out today and I am not even sure I can come close to conveying everything that has gotten my mind running on overdrive. So as I begin I will try my hardest to just let my fingers do the talking that my brain can't.

At the end of last nights blog I said that today would be a New Beginning. At the time of that statement I didn't have a full grasp of what a true New Beginning might consist of and so I thought a lot about it and my present status as of right now and I have come up with something, a plan if you will that will enable me to reach a certain level of happiness with my situation. Cause right now I am far from happy with where I am at right now in my life. I do have certain aspects that seem to be getting better(like the fact that I now have a job) but in general I want so much more for myself than this. First what I believe will be able to garnish the title of a true "New Beginning". So for a new beginning I need to get out this house and away from my family especially from my sister and her whatever Michael Rush who I honestly would love to kill (honestly). I am just completely done with this life and I need a huge change or I fear that I might start to grow away from my family. Lately I just feel like I as an individual do not fit in with my family, I am so different than the rest of my immediate family. I am passionate about politics when my parents could careless. I think about everything from Physics, Religion, Science, History, and the Future of the world among many other things that I doubt many other people care about. I believe that I need a new family (Chris,Jeremy,and Eric I am talking to you) So that is why I decided to stay here in Florida while the rest of my family goes up to Michigan so that I can get a small taste of life by myself to see if it really is better than being surrounded people who I most of the time don't get along with.

So I had a lot more on my mind but after talking to Chris, Jeremy, and Malerie my hate induced rant has been reduced to now all I want to talk about is my day.

So here I go.

In Fact Since I was on the phone for two hours I will fill in the rest tomorrow

Cause I need to get off before my dad starts getting ready for and comes out yelling at me so

But I did have at great conversation with Chris, Jeremy, and Malerie and hope we can do it again tomorrow night..or I mean tomorrow morning :)

YaY!! for party chat!!!

To Be Continued..........

Peace Out!!