One Day at a Time....

Wow that last blog post was a doozy! But hey that is how I was feeling at that time and isn't that what this blog is for?... Yep it is, I have calmed down a little now and as the title suggests just taking things one day at a time. Financially, Health wise, and life in general, sometimes people forget that they need to live in the now and not stress too much over what has not happened yet.

Financially im continuing to get things under control only have one more payment of $157 then my car will be completely paid off (YAY!) and season is like a month and a half away then I will be to busy to spend money and will be racking up hoursand overtime so hopefully around March I should be in no debt (maybe my student loan still unpaid in full) but should have quite a savings built up!

As far as my healthiness is concerned, I just started at LA Fitness and the reason I like it there so much is they have a basketball court right in the gym. I love playing basketball, it is fun and an extreme full body work out with cardio built in. So I can shoot hoops to warm up then go run and lift and close out with more basketball. I will be active for longer and the beginning and ending with some basketball will make my gains during the other two activities more efficient and more substantial! Plus I am probably going to go back to a mainly granola/protein bar and protein shake diet hopefully with some organic vegetable and fruit juices.

I am also thinking of Vlogging a little again, of course the videos I would post on here... well I guess that is all I have for today, maybe I will spill all about the changes happening at work tomorrow ugh but until then...

Peace. ☮

Change is MotherF#$%ing Difficult!

"It is easy to tell yourself that you are ready for change but tough as hell to actually change yourself" -ME about 5 hours ago via Google+

The truest words I have typed all day! Its so wonderful to think about all the life changes you want to make but then reality kicks in and you realize that the shit is not going to just happen. You actually need to do shit to accomplish goals, but you are already so use to not doing a goddamn thing and kinda just getting by. You tell your self that everything will work out but if you are not doing anything about it then no, no it will not work out! You will still be a fat piece of shit that just shits around not doing anything to lose weight, continuing to eat shit that you KNOW and TELL yourself every fucking day that you should not eat but you eat it anyway!! Seriously What The Fuck!! I don't know... Maybe I am being a tad hard on myself but fuck it nothing else is fucking working... I will get my Fat ASS to the gym tomorrow whether its LA Fitness or the Gym at the country club I work at. I need to at least start running everyday and get back to lifting. I need to actually use the juicer I bought and eat the vegetables and fruits I fucking bought! I once lost 20lbs in ONE month but somehow I have lost sight of whatever motivation I used to achieve that! I need to find it or another form of motivation! Maybe writing this is stimulating something deep down or maybe I just need to read this every morning to get my self to the gym!

I do not know... But Shit HAS to CHANGE! I can NOT continue to live like this!!!

Over-Hyped/Short Blog

Well today was not nearly as exciting or fun as I was hyping it up to be in my mind, oh well, at least I did not have to work! Now I can not wait til I get paid on Tuesday so I can go out and get a Juicer and start my juice fast. I recently watched a documentary on Netflix called Fat, Sick, Nearly Dead.



I want to start it as soon as possible, on top of that I need to get back in the gym hopefully between the two I should see some pretty extreme results and some real positive changes!

First Night Back Home

Well it is official... I am now living with my parents once again. After I hooked my media station all up all I have been doing is playing Call of Duty: MW2

Other than the fact I really dont have any official bedding arrangements, it kind of feels good to be back home (Like a security blanket) A lot of pressure seems to have been lifted and now I can get to paying off everything I owe and then I will be golden!! I can not wait to not have to worry about what I cant pay every paycheck!

It is 2:00am and I should be asleep cause I work all day tomorrow (10-9) but I will be alright, I might even attempt to go on a run before work so I will let you know how that goes tomorrow... So until then...

Peace. ☮

Home is Where the Heart Is,,,

So once again I find myself returning to my blog... Well a lot has been happening and I guess that is one reason I have returned, but also because now that will be back living with my parents it almost feels like I should (also thinking of vlogging again) There are a lot of Pros/Cons that come with this move but ultimately it is the best thing for me to do and I am a little excited. Not only do I finally have (stable) internet again but I really do like hanging with my family, of course in a couple weeks I will be complaining about no privacy and my shitty bed arrangement but hopefully the fact that I wont be living paycheck to paycheck will help to offset those cons. Now that I wont be responsible for $300 in rent and after one more payment my car will paid off (which is another $320 a month) I will finally be able to save again. Take into account that I will be working full time during season again (I didnt last season because of school) and all the money that will be staying in my bank account, I will finally get out of this hole I have been in for months now, the relief from that will be so satisfying.

After I am completely moved back in (tomorrow night hopefully) I can put my focus back on getting healthy and again getting out of debt. I need to start hitting the gym everyday again and eating healthy, which reminds me that when I get paid in a week I want to buy a juicer and go on a fruits/vegetable juice fast. I recently watched a documentary on Netflix call "Fat, Sick, Nearly Dead" and the couple of guys it focused on lost extreme amounts of weight in around 60 days although they saw drastic losses after 10-30 days. So I am hoping that no matter how long I can last on it that it will hyper reboot my body and completely clean myself out and super nourish my body so that the running and lifting I will be doing will be even more effective!

Its funny I have been fairly down for the past couple weeks, with all these different people calling for money and my phone company threatening to turn my phone off (again) but the past few days after I came to the conclusion that I needed and would move back in with my parents I have felt happier and more optimistic. Everything will be alright... It is not the end of the world... soon this will have passed and I will be on the other side happier than ever.

So yea once I do get to the other side of season and I have all this money saved up (hopefully) I want to take an extended vacation to Georgia to visit my favorite people in the world. When I am up there though I might look and feel around for jobs just to get an idea if it is even plausible to make to jump. I mean I do have friends here and I really do not want to abandon them but I honestly believe I need a change of scenery and maybe the month long vacation will suffice but in case it does not, I should be prepared. Another thing is that I have been thinking about applying to ITT for their Drafting and Design program but if I move to Georgia the only campus is in Atlanta 2 hours from where I would be living, but if I stay here there is one like 20 minutes away, just something else I need to factor in.

The reason I always find myself coming back is that when you really need to get something out but you really do not want to talk to anyone about it face to face, you can always just put it here. Not only that but everything is archived and it really is a trip to read things a year old and sort of realize that things either have or have not changed all that much for better or for worse...

So until next time...

Peace. ☮