"It is easy to tell yourself that you are ready for change but tough as hell to actually change yourself" -ME about 5 hours ago via Google+
The truest words I have typed all day! Its so wonderful to think about all the life changes you want to make but then reality kicks in and you realize that the shit is not going to just happen. You actually need to do shit to accomplish goals, but you are already so use to not doing a goddamn thing and kinda just getting by. You tell your self that everything will work out but if you are not doing anything about it then no, no it will not work out! You will still be a fat piece of shit that just shits around not doing anything to lose weight, continuing to eat shit that you KNOW and TELL yourself every fucking day that you should not eat but you eat it anyway!! Seriously What The Fuck!! I don't know... Maybe I am being a tad hard on myself but fuck it nothing else is fucking working... I will get my Fat ASS to the gym tomorrow whether its LA Fitness or the Gym at the country club I work at. I need to at least start running everyday and get back to lifting. I need to actually use the juicer I bought and eat the vegetables and fruits I fucking bought! I once lost 20lbs in ONE month but somehow I have lost sight of whatever motivation I used to achieve that! I need to find it or another form of motivation! Maybe writing this is stimulating something deep down or maybe I just need to read this every morning to get my self to the gym!
I do not know... But Shit HAS to CHANGE! I can NOT continue to live like this!!!
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