Back Again...

       It's pretty amazing that I always seem to find my way back to this blog, I dont know how or why the feeling over comes me to write some more in my online diary, but alas, here I am. Well I am in a new location once again, and I am still not sure if its for the best or not. Though I am certain that I am completely tired of packing up and moving about every few months. Hopefully in the end I will have helped to accomplish something for my family and not just myself.

      I am currently in Augusta, Georgia living with my cousin, her husband, FOUR kids! They arent bad, just... you know... kids. I still have not found a job and it is really starting to take a toll on me, I really just need to start working to give me something to do as well as some income to start putting my life back together! To tell you the truth, I have let my life get completely out of hand. My finances are in a complete wreck and it is a bit tough to realize how much I am in debt right now. As soon as I can start working though I will finally start focusing on resolving ALL OF IT instead of ignoring anything having to do with money. Once I can get a grip on some of it and can some what breathe again I will be able to start looking into getting back into college and getting started on my goal of becoming an R.N. I have three things I will be focusing on, My money (lack of), My Mind (college), and My Body (losing weight) once I start working that should not be too hard, right?

       Other than all that serious personal shit, I have been thinking of legitimately giving YouTube a shot as in make videos regularly and see if anyone would care about what I have to say. In real life I am great at making friends and talking/listening to people why wouldnt it translate to online people? The only thing is that I will have to get over my fear of seeing/listening to myself on video, I feel like I am just weird and fat and people will dismiss me or worse, ridicule me. Then I think FUCK IT! wont hurt to try, what is the worst that could happen? So soon I will start working on content, I already have a few ideas but not sure how my execution will be... But fuck it is almost 4 am so maybe I should close the laptop and come back after some sleep... I wish I could talk into the camera as naturally as typing out text... Well until next time...

Peace. ☮

Seriously if ANYONE reads this feel free to leave a comment or something I love talking to people about ANYTHING haha