Well... Here I am once again...
Overall I am in a better place now then when I posted on here last, I am back down in Florida and have been for close to 2 years and I have been in a stable residence for the last year and a half. I have great roommates and we all get along which is something I havent had other than when I lived with my parents. For the most part everything has been going very well (except for the last couple months of summer) I now have 2 nice Country Club jobs and I am making good money again! Hopefully I will be able to get my finances straightened out and start saving for College! So things are certainly looking up... Though I cant shake this weird feeling and I think I know how to resolve it.
Very very soon I need to get back to eating healthier and working out again (also stop smoking) because I have finally come to the point where I cant stop thinking about how shitty I look and feel. I know that it doesnt have to be this way, I have been healthier before and I can vaguely remember how amazing I felt when I worked out 6-7 days a week and ate things that helped to support my body and not destroy it... Hopefully writing about it here will help get the motivation cogs turning, they may be a little rusty. I am always fucking tired and it really makes it hard to be productive. I am surprised I actually sat down and took the time to write this, baby steps. Well, tomorrow I need to get up early and get a new tire for my car and shop for some real food, I also need to clean out my car, do some yoga (maybe some other body weight exercises) If I can do all of that then I will feel like I am on the right track (also if I can go tomorrow without buying or smoking any cigarettes) it all might be a little too much for me but I need to be strong! I can fucking do this!
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