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yea I feel like shit I hate being sick but atleast I have the lovable Serial Killer to make me feel better. Chris thank you Dexter is so awesome!!
Friday, December 26, 2008
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
What A Weekend!!!!
OK so I have pretty much told Jeremy the whole story but the rest of you especially Kelly will really want to hear about the kind of weekend I have had.
Now I have never been much of a smoker, I mean I would occasionally enjoy a Honey Dutch Master with friends while drinking (yea Chris you remember) and only a couple of times something more recreational (and I hope most people know what I mean by "recreational") anyway so to reiterate me = more of a social smoker whether it be a cigar or some M.J.
The other part of history you need to know before I get into my weekend is that my parents have for as long as I can remember been smoking the ganja, as well as a few of my aunts and uncles (mothers and fathers side [Kelly your parents are grouped in there too]) So everyday when my dad gets home they will usually withdraw into their room and do it. My sis and I have known for the longest time because it is pretty obvious I mean we hear coughing and when they are done they always spray air deodorizer to cover it up plus we can smell it. It was funny when Jeremy would come over and we would sit at the computer and we just knew that they were in there toking up. So my sister and I have talked about confronting them about it for YEARS but were always to afraid and never acted on our talks that is until one fateful Friday night when I got the motivation I needed.
Friday Night!
During the day I was at my Aunts house with my mom and ricky when we all went to my grandmas at around 5. I left to go get my paycheck to deposit it for some shopping but by the time I got back it was 6 something and I had planned to go to see my cousin play softball at a nearby park. It was freezing and it was a good game unfortunately they lost so I gave my other cousin a call to see what he was up to. He told me that I should come down to (my other aunts house where he is living) because there are a few people and some shit so I said why not and headed down. When I got there I went up inside and heard some music and saw a few people I knew like Jaclyn, Scott, Danny(my cousin), Tommy(kinda my cousin but through marriage not blood), Curtis(a friend of my cousins and mine who is down from college), and Vanessa(a friend of Jaclyns that I hadnt seen in like 5 or 6 years) and Kim(who I recognized from being at my aunt Judy's house) and some kid named Nick who I met for the first time(he wasnt much of a talker but still pretty cool) When I got up in there I noticed a beer pong table and some beer and everyone kinda chillin sitting in chairs. They were almost out of beer so Kim being 21 went to get some while I started talking to Curtis and everyone else. My cousin and Curtis both started rolling blunts my cousin kept his in his ear and Curtis went to one of the chairs and started smoking it with Nick by the time anyone noticed it was done and Kim was back with some beer. After awhile Scott and Curtis started a game of B.P. against I think Jaclyn and someone else, anyway I told my cousin that if we didnt smoke soon then I was leaving because there was nothing else really going down. After about a half hour and everyone telling me how shocked they were that I smoke my cousin packed a bowl and started passing (this is when I started talking to Kim) We started talking and really getting along and she said how cool I was and how we had seen each other so many times before but we never really talked, and I said I guess it just took this kinda of atmosphere to get us to talk to each other. So we were talking for awhile, around that time another kid showed up who I didnt know his name was Jarrett(he was pretty cool) Tommy said he was about to go to the gas station down the street to meet up with a couple chicks he called in and I wanted to go get some Honey Dutch's(cause it isnt a party without some Honey Cigars) so I bought what I wanted and we lead them back to the party (keep in mind that it might have happened in a different order so it isn't a 100% recollection)(I was High) The 2 girls were pretty nasty and I probably wouldn't touch them for anything. But Curtis seemed to like them a lot because he was mac'ing on both of them. After awhile Jarrett, Danny, Nick, and I ended up in Danny's room where Jarrett rolled up another blunt when were about done Jaclyn, Vanessa, and Kim came in and wanted us(well Danny) to kick put the nasty chicks (I just wanted to see a fight, and it was close to that) but Danny was pretty gone. Word of this got back to Curtis and he came in to find out what the problem was and Jaclyn told him she wanted them gone because it was "crowded out there". After standing there for 15 min he went back out there and Tommy kicked them but not without some shit talking first so they eventually left and Curtis was PISSED cause he wanted some pussy hahaha. And the next conversation I had with Kim is the one where I got my motivation. She told me that she smokes with my parents and especially my mom all the time she even went into detail about where the sit and how they talk after inhaling, I was just like you're lying and I don't believe you(even though I knew she was telling the truth) and she was like seriously, so I said I am gonna ask my mom about that. So after another half an hour I left at around 12:30.
Saturday
I had plans to go shopping in the morning but I didn't get up until close to 11. When I woke I remembered the conversation I had with Kim and how I said I would bring it up but I kinda just kept debating whether or not I was going to do it. By 1 I was out the door on my down to the Coastland Mall, I stopped at Burger King and decided to send my mom a text about it because I thought it safer than confronting her face to face(yea I'm a chicken Fuck You) I dont recall the text but she ended up saying we need to talk about it later and she didnt want to do it over text so I said ok and went about my day I got almost all my shopping done but my mom wanted me to bring up a couple people from Naples up to the house so they could help with the Christmas deco. and after we got up there I had to continue on to the Disney store at Coco. because the one in Coastland is closed!! So I got my cousin Ricky a lot of stuff and headed home now the rest of the night it was kinda awkward because we kinda knew that we were gonna talk sooner or later but that night would not be it.
Sunday
We had birthdays to celebrate at my aunt Judy's later that day, I got up around 10 and went out into the kitchen where again it was kinda awkward like the night before but my sister left with michael and my dad went to go get a shower and it just left my mother and me sitting at the kitchen table. She finally asked what do you wanna know and I cant remember exactly what I said or how it really started but we just talked like calm adults. She explained that they dont look at it like a "real drug" and that it was something that they started when they were my age. And they didnt want to flaunt it like some people in front of their kids(like your parents Kelly) and whatever and then I asked her what she would think if I smoked it. Again I cant remeber what she said but she mentioned that Kim had told Judy that Friday night I was smoking with her and my aunt told my mom so joked around and said how she already knew, she also said that if we(her kids) were ever going to do it she would hope it would happen after we had graduated (which I have). I continued to tell her about the times I drank and about the only time when I got drunk enough that I puked. We just talked for a good 30-45min most of it joking and laughing.(later she said that she expected it to be WAY more awkward then it was) but it was all good and I felt so much better afterward. I then showed my mom a clip of Katt Williams talking about weed(I will include it at the bottom) and she laughed pretty hard. So we then packed up and left for Judy's we got there when it was just my parents and Judy and Rick(aunt and uncle who my parents smoke with) and Kim and I joked with Kim about how she ratted me out about Friday night and we all got a good laugh about it. We then had the party. Everyone was pretty much gone by 8 and I went in my aunts bedroom with Kim, my mom, and judy. And my mom and Judy were talking and I guess was asking if they were gonna kick me out so they could toke. But my mom said "well he knows and he said he wants to do it more often"(I said that during our talk in the morning) then Rick came in and asked if they were going to do it in front of me and Judy told him he knows and does it too so.. then my dad came in and they went all to one side near the bathroom and pulled out a joint thats when Kim and I got up and joined them. So I then preceded to smoke weed with my Mom, Dad, Aunt, and Uncle!!! My aunt Judy who I have know my whole life is the one that passed it to me, in a way it was SUPER WEIRD but somehow not really at all, but yea so we then left like right after that. After we got home I then left to head down to my cousins(where I was at Friday) When I got there they had just started "The Love Guru" and started passing around his bong.
Monday
I didnt get really any sleep and had to take Jaclyn up to School at 7 so we left at 6:30. I then went home and passed out I woke up to a call from my (uber religious aunt) Linda to make sure I was still gonna pick her up at 5. So at 4:15 I left to go get her then dropped her off at home and headed out to my aunt Judy's to see Ricky and drop of some venison. I waited for my uncle to finish deep frying the venison I ate and then drove back out to my aunt Linda's where they were having a candle party I waited for them to finish cause I was my mom's ride. During the wait I fixed my aunts notebook mouse. We then got home and I am now writing this blog. So as you can clearly see this has been quite an interesting weekend and I can't wait for all the comments and questions to come so until next time...
Peace Out! (also the Katt Williams video I showed my mom is down below)
Now I have never been much of a smoker, I mean I would occasionally enjoy a Honey Dutch Master with friends while drinking (yea Chris you remember) and only a couple of times something more recreational (and I hope most people know what I mean by "recreational") anyway so to reiterate me = more of a social smoker whether it be a cigar or some M.J.
The other part of history you need to know before I get into my weekend is that my parents have for as long as I can remember been smoking the ganja, as well as a few of my aunts and uncles (mothers and fathers side [Kelly your parents are grouped in there too]) So everyday when my dad gets home they will usually withdraw into their room and do it. My sis and I have known for the longest time because it is pretty obvious I mean we hear coughing and when they are done they always spray air deodorizer to cover it up plus we can smell it. It was funny when Jeremy would come over and we would sit at the computer and we just knew that they were in there toking up. So my sister and I have talked about confronting them about it for YEARS but were always to afraid and never acted on our talks that is until one fateful Friday night when I got the motivation I needed.
Friday Night!
During the day I was at my Aunts house with my mom and ricky when we all went to my grandmas at around 5. I left to go get my paycheck to deposit it for some shopping but by the time I got back it was 6 something and I had planned to go to see my cousin play softball at a nearby park. It was freezing and it was a good game unfortunately they lost so I gave my other cousin a call to see what he was up to. He told me that I should come down to (my other aunts house where he is living) because there are a few people and some shit so I said why not and headed down. When I got there I went up inside and heard some music and saw a few people I knew like Jaclyn, Scott, Danny(my cousin), Tommy(kinda my cousin but through marriage not blood), Curtis(a friend of my cousins and mine who is down from college), and Vanessa(a friend of Jaclyns that I hadnt seen in like 5 or 6 years) and Kim(who I recognized from being at my aunt Judy's house) and some kid named Nick who I met for the first time(he wasnt much of a talker but still pretty cool) When I got up in there I noticed a beer pong table and some beer and everyone kinda chillin sitting in chairs. They were almost out of beer so Kim being 21 went to get some while I started talking to Curtis and everyone else. My cousin and Curtis both started rolling blunts my cousin kept his in his ear and Curtis went to one of the chairs and started smoking it with Nick by the time anyone noticed it was done and Kim was back with some beer. After awhile Scott and Curtis started a game of B.P. against I think Jaclyn and someone else, anyway I told my cousin that if we didnt smoke soon then I was leaving because there was nothing else really going down. After about a half hour and everyone telling me how shocked they were that I smoke my cousin packed a bowl and started passing (this is when I started talking to Kim) We started talking and really getting along and she said how cool I was and how we had seen each other so many times before but we never really talked, and I said I guess it just took this kinda of atmosphere to get us to talk to each other. So we were talking for awhile, around that time another kid showed up who I didnt know his name was Jarrett(he was pretty cool) Tommy said he was about to go to the gas station down the street to meet up with a couple chicks he called in and I wanted to go get some Honey Dutch's(cause it isnt a party without some Honey Cigars) so I bought what I wanted and we lead them back to the party (keep in mind that it might have happened in a different order so it isn't a 100% recollection)(I was High) The 2 girls were pretty nasty and I probably wouldn't touch them for anything. But Curtis seemed to like them a lot because he was mac'ing on both of them. After awhile Jarrett, Danny, Nick, and I ended up in Danny's room where Jarrett rolled up another blunt when were about done Jaclyn, Vanessa, and Kim came in and wanted us(well Danny) to kick put the nasty chicks (I just wanted to see a fight, and it was close to that) but Danny was pretty gone. Word of this got back to Curtis and he came in to find out what the problem was and Jaclyn told him she wanted them gone because it was "crowded out there". After standing there for 15 min he went back out there and Tommy kicked them but not without some shit talking first so they eventually left and Curtis was PISSED cause he wanted some pussy hahaha. And the next conversation I had with Kim is the one where I got my motivation. She told me that she smokes with my parents and especially my mom all the time she even went into detail about where the sit and how they talk after inhaling, I was just like you're lying and I don't believe you(even though I knew she was telling the truth) and she was like seriously, so I said I am gonna ask my mom about that. So after another half an hour I left at around 12:30.
Saturday
I had plans to go shopping in the morning but I didn't get up until close to 11. When I woke I remembered the conversation I had with Kim and how I said I would bring it up but I kinda just kept debating whether or not I was going to do it. By 1 I was out the door on my down to the Coastland Mall, I stopped at Burger King and decided to send my mom a text about it because I thought it safer than confronting her face to face(yea I'm a chicken Fuck You) I dont recall the text but she ended up saying we need to talk about it later and she didnt want to do it over text so I said ok and went about my day I got almost all my shopping done but my mom wanted me to bring up a couple people from Naples up to the house so they could help with the Christmas deco. and after we got up there I had to continue on to the Disney store at Coco. because the one in Coastland is closed!! So I got my cousin Ricky a lot of stuff and headed home now the rest of the night it was kinda awkward because we kinda knew that we were gonna talk sooner or later but that night would not be it.
Sunday
We had birthdays to celebrate at my aunt Judy's later that day, I got up around 10 and went out into the kitchen where again it was kinda awkward like the night before but my sister left with michael and my dad went to go get a shower and it just left my mother and me sitting at the kitchen table. She finally asked what do you wanna know and I cant remember exactly what I said or how it really started but we just talked like calm adults. She explained that they dont look at it like a "real drug" and that it was something that they started when they were my age. And they didnt want to flaunt it like some people in front of their kids(like your parents Kelly) and whatever and then I asked her what she would think if I smoked it. Again I cant remeber what she said but she mentioned that Kim had told Judy that Friday night I was smoking with her and my aunt told my mom so joked around and said how she already knew, she also said that if we(her kids) were ever going to do it she would hope it would happen after we had graduated (which I have). I continued to tell her about the times I drank and about the only time when I got drunk enough that I puked. We just talked for a good 30-45min most of it joking and laughing.(later she said that she expected it to be WAY more awkward then it was) but it was all good and I felt so much better afterward. I then showed my mom a clip of Katt Williams talking about weed(I will include it at the bottom) and she laughed pretty hard. So we then packed up and left for Judy's we got there when it was just my parents and Judy and Rick(aunt and uncle who my parents smoke with) and Kim and I joked with Kim about how she ratted me out about Friday night and we all got a good laugh about it. We then had the party. Everyone was pretty much gone by 8 and I went in my aunts bedroom with Kim, my mom, and judy. And my mom and Judy were talking and I guess was asking if they were gonna kick me out so they could toke. But my mom said "well he knows and he said he wants to do it more often"(I said that during our talk in the morning) then Rick came in and asked if they were going to do it in front of me and Judy told him he knows and does it too so.. then my dad came in and they went all to one side near the bathroom and pulled out a joint thats when Kim and I got up and joined them. So I then preceded to smoke weed with my Mom, Dad, Aunt, and Uncle!!! My aunt Judy who I have know my whole life is the one that passed it to me, in a way it was SUPER WEIRD but somehow not really at all, but yea so we then left like right after that. After we got home I then left to head down to my cousins(where I was at Friday) When I got there they had just started "The Love Guru" and started passing around his bong.
Monday
I didnt get really any sleep and had to take Jaclyn up to School at 7 so we left at 6:30. I then went home and passed out I woke up to a call from my (uber religious aunt) Linda to make sure I was still gonna pick her up at 5. So at 4:15 I left to go get her then dropped her off at home and headed out to my aunt Judy's to see Ricky and drop of some venison. I waited for my uncle to finish deep frying the venison I ate and then drove back out to my aunt Linda's where they were having a candle party I waited for them to finish cause I was my mom's ride. During the wait I fixed my aunts notebook mouse. We then got home and I am now writing this blog. So as you can clearly see this has been quite an interesting weekend and I can't wait for all the comments and questions to come so until next time...
Peace Out! (also the Katt Williams video I showed my mom is down below)
Friday, December 12, 2008
VLOG!!! V.2
Well hope you are happy Kelly! Not only did I give you a blog for Christmas but it is a video one too!
Monday, December 8, 2008
Sunday, December 7, 2008
X-Mas Ball and A Cold
I am sorry that I have been absent from the blogosphere for a few days but I have been fairly busy with a Wake, Funeral, a Concert and Family. Now I have a cold but I told myself that I NEED to write a blog so I am fighting through my cold and my intense need of sleep to update you tonight.
Side Note: Now most of you know that I have a pretty intense hate of most Country music but there are some exceptions like Garth Brooks and Rascal Flatts. I even grew up listening to it and I still do not like it that much. But there is a new exception and there whole C.D. is really good (I highly recommend you check it out Via iTunes or Chris, Zune Marketplace but they have great songs and there is a pretty funny one called "Sic' em on a Chicken"! (yes actual song title). The Band: Zac Brown Band, Album: The Foundation.
So yesterday (Friday Dec. 5, 2008) was the day that I have been waiting for, for about a month and a half. I woke up around, actually I cant remember but it was fairly early because I drove my mother down to my grandmothers. Half way there she realized that she forgot her rings so we decided that when we got there she would take the car back up to get them before my grandma got back from her appointment. I just waited there talking to my Uncle Bob until my grandma showed up with my Aunt Linda and Uncle Ron. We were talking while I made a sandwhich and waited for my Mom to show up with the car so I could try and make it up to Jeremy's before 2:30. After my mom got back and stayed a couple more minutes and talked and while looking at the time I knew that I had to leave immediately (it was like 10 after 2) so I got directly on I-75 and started north. Some how I got there in around 30 min. (for the distance I covered that is amazing![maybe it is a sign I drive to fast] nah cant be)
I called Eric shortly after getting off of J's exit and Eric said he was just about at the exit. When I got to his house I saw that his mothers car wasnt there I figured that meant no one was ther but I knocked anyway to no answer. By that time Eric pulled into the drive way, I told him and we decided to go to "The City" to see if he was there. As we were about to turn onto the street where T.C. (The City) was I realized I had called the wrong number earlier so I called J's old number and he said that he was minutes away from home. Damn! I had driven down there for nothing but it is only a few minutes away.
I apologize but I am going to Lightningize the rest of the blog because it is almost 2:00 a.m.
We shortly left Jeremy's and headed to search for food. Popeye's was the big winner and I am always good for some Popeye's mmmmmmm!!! We killed some time and ate, we figured we should go and try and find some where to park. Luckily we found some Free parking but somebody Fucking dropped there key, ERIC! so we spent a good 20 minutes looking for it while Framing Hanley played in the background. We finally found it but I decided that I would hold onto it because I didnt want to be stranded in North Ft Myers (It definitely worked out for the best) After getting through a pat down and ticket scan we were finally in! unfortunately some one ditched us shortly after ERIC! J and I waited for Framing to finally finish so that we could enjoy some real music. A song later they were done and all we needed was another 30 min. before the A-Team performed (Atreyu) J and I made our way into the madness but just far enough not to get crushed or hit (even though toward the end moshes started right next to us. Atreyu was awesome!! even though I mainly only knew there new stuff plus Ex's and Oh's (sorry Jeremy but thats just me). Next up SHINEDOWN!!!!! (granted I have seen them before in concert but I couldnt see anything because we were up in the seats at Germain) so this time I had to get as close as possible! (again sorry Jeremy I honestly didnt want to ditch you but I think you understand) and atleast I didnt ditch you like ERIC! so when they started playing I had to fight my way up to the front. I first used a mosh bit to gain a lot of ground (after pushing a few people around) I just took every opening I could and got within 10 yards of the stage and almost dead center. Half way through a couple of (drunk I think) jackasses were behind me ramming to get up front. I just planted my fight and stood my ground, one guy got in front of me so I just grabbed his two arms and threw him back behind me. Anyway SHINEDOWN was AWESOME!!!! Jeremy and I went to go sit down while AX7 set up. We both were kinda done and wanted to head out or do something and then I remembered Erics key on my key ring. So we decided to head to McD's (we ended up at The BK Lounge instead) because it was cheaper and prob better tasting than anyhtin they had at the concert. (like J I am not gonna go into the difficulties we had with his car but, Eric you need to get that looked at for real) We got back to the parking lot right as Eric was walking to us. We then went back to Jeremy's where I picked up my car and I went home and passed out.
Today I woke up late and didnt do much except feel sick all day, I had work at 5 but luckily I got out early around 8. I came home took some meds, watched The Chronicles of Narnia: Prince Caspian. Now I am finishing this and then going to bed.
Tomorrow I am going down to my grandmas so that my mom can help decorate for Christmas and while this is going on I will be keeping my cousin occupied haha I cant wait.
So until next time
Peace Out!
Side Note: Now most of you know that I have a pretty intense hate of most Country music but there are some exceptions like Garth Brooks and Rascal Flatts. I even grew up listening to it and I still do not like it that much. But there is a new exception and there whole C.D. is really good (I highly recommend you check it out Via iTunes or Chris, Zune Marketplace but they have great songs and there is a pretty funny one called "Sic' em on a Chicken"! (yes actual song title). The Band: Zac Brown Band, Album: The Foundation.
So yesterday (Friday Dec. 5, 2008) was the day that I have been waiting for, for about a month and a half. I woke up around, actually I cant remember but it was fairly early because I drove my mother down to my grandmothers. Half way there she realized that she forgot her rings so we decided that when we got there she would take the car back up to get them before my grandma got back from her appointment. I just waited there talking to my Uncle Bob until my grandma showed up with my Aunt Linda and Uncle Ron. We were talking while I made a sandwhich and waited for my Mom to show up with the car so I could try and make it up to Jeremy's before 2:30. After my mom got back and stayed a couple more minutes and talked and while looking at the time I knew that I had to leave immediately (it was like 10 after 2) so I got directly on I-75 and started north. Some how I got there in around 30 min. (for the distance I covered that is amazing![maybe it is a sign I drive to fast] nah cant be)
I called Eric shortly after getting off of J's exit and Eric said he was just about at the exit. When I got to his house I saw that his mothers car wasnt there I figured that meant no one was ther but I knocked anyway to no answer. By that time Eric pulled into the drive way, I told him and we decided to go to "The City" to see if he was there. As we were about to turn onto the street where T.C. (The City) was I realized I had called the wrong number earlier so I called J's old number and he said that he was minutes away from home. Damn! I had driven down there for nothing but it is only a few minutes away.
I apologize but I am going to Lightningize the rest of the blog because it is almost 2:00 a.m.
We shortly left Jeremy's and headed to search for food. Popeye's was the big winner and I am always good for some Popeye's mmmmmmm!!! We killed some time and ate, we figured we should go and try and find some where to park. Luckily we found some Free parking but somebody Fucking dropped there key, ERIC! so we spent a good 20 minutes looking for it while Framing Hanley played in the background. We finally found it but I decided that I would hold onto it because I didnt want to be stranded in North Ft Myers (It definitely worked out for the best) After getting through a pat down and ticket scan we were finally in! unfortunately some one ditched us shortly after ERIC! J and I waited for Framing to finally finish so that we could enjoy some real music. A song later they were done and all we needed was another 30 min. before the A-Team performed (Atreyu) J and I made our way into the madness but just far enough not to get crushed or hit (even though toward the end moshes started right next to us. Atreyu was awesome!! even though I mainly only knew there new stuff plus Ex's and Oh's (sorry Jeremy but thats just me). Next up SHINEDOWN!!!!! (granted I have seen them before in concert but I couldnt see anything because we were up in the seats at Germain) so this time I had to get as close as possible! (again sorry Jeremy I honestly didnt want to ditch you but I think you understand) and atleast I didnt ditch you like ERIC! so when they started playing I had to fight my way up to the front. I first used a mosh bit to gain a lot of ground (after pushing a few people around) I just took every opening I could and got within 10 yards of the stage and almost dead center. Half way through a couple of (drunk I think) jackasses were behind me ramming to get up front. I just planted my fight and stood my ground, one guy got in front of me so I just grabbed his two arms and threw him back behind me. Anyway SHINEDOWN was AWESOME!!!! Jeremy and I went to go sit down while AX7 set up. We both were kinda done and wanted to head out or do something and then I remembered Erics key on my key ring. So we decided to head to McD's (we ended up at The BK Lounge instead) because it was cheaper and prob better tasting than anyhtin they had at the concert. (like J I am not gonna go into the difficulties we had with his car but, Eric you need to get that looked at for real) We got back to the parking lot right as Eric was walking to us. We then went back to Jeremy's where I picked up my car and I went home and passed out.
Today I woke up late and didnt do much except feel sick all day, I had work at 5 but luckily I got out early around 8. I came home took some meds, watched The Chronicles of Narnia: Prince Caspian. Now I am finishing this and then going to bed.
Tomorrow I am going down to my grandmas so that my mom can help decorate for Christmas and while this is going on I will be keeping my cousin occupied haha I cant wait.
So until next time
Peace Out!
Thursday, December 4, 2008
Happiness+Anger+Embarrassment+Loyalty=FAMILY!
You know I like my chicken fried
A cold beer on a Friday night
A pair of jeans that fit just right
And the radio up
Well I`ve seen the sunrise
See the love in my woman`s eyes
Feel the touch of a precious child
And know a mother`s love
Well I was raised up beneath the shade of a Georgia pine
And that`s home you know
Sweet tea pecan pie and homemade wine
Where the peaches grow
And my house it`s not much to talk about
But it`s filled with love that`s grown in southern ground
And it's funny how it`s the simple things in life that mean the most
Not where you live, what you drive, or the price tag on your clothes
There`s no dollar sign on a piece of mind this I`ve come to know
So if you agree have a drink with me
Raise you glasses for a toast
I thank god for my life
And for the stars and stripes
May freedom forever fly, let it ring
Salute the ones who died
And the ones that give their lives, so we don`t have to sacrifice
All the things we love
I know it has been awhile since I have blogged and I apologize profusely but I have just been kinda blog lazy lately. Unfortunately I need to make this short because I have to be up early tomorrow to get ready for my grandpa's funeral where I will be one of the Pallbearers.
Earlier tonight we had the wake where family and friends gathered to celebrate and talk about the many wonderful memories we have of him. It was plenty of fun, I saw a few people that I haven't seen in years so that was very joyful.
One other thing I want to update people on is my cousin. He is doing so great!! before he would always refuse interaction for anybody but now he is starting to return to his normal self and it makes me so happy to see him laughing and smiling again. Almost the whole wake I was playing with him and trying to keep him laughing so he wouldn't think about his hands and legs, I was pretty efficient. So yea I am ecstatic for him.
Until Next Time.....
Peace Out!
A cold beer on a Friday night
A pair of jeans that fit just right
And the radio up
Well I`ve seen the sunrise
See the love in my woman`s eyes
Feel the touch of a precious child
And know a mother`s love
Well I was raised up beneath the shade of a Georgia pine
And that`s home you know
Sweet tea pecan pie and homemade wine
Where the peaches grow
And my house it`s not much to talk about
But it`s filled with love that`s grown in southern ground
And it's funny how it`s the simple things in life that mean the most
Not where you live, what you drive, or the price tag on your clothes
There`s no dollar sign on a piece of mind this I`ve come to know
So if you agree have a drink with me
Raise you glasses for a toast
I thank god for my life
And for the stars and stripes
May freedom forever fly, let it ring
Salute the ones who died
And the ones that give their lives, so we don`t have to sacrifice
All the things we love
I know it has been awhile since I have blogged and I apologize profusely but I have just been kinda blog lazy lately. Unfortunately I need to make this short because I have to be up early tomorrow to get ready for my grandpa's funeral where I will be one of the Pallbearers.
Earlier tonight we had the wake where family and friends gathered to celebrate and talk about the many wonderful memories we have of him. It was plenty of fun, I saw a few people that I haven't seen in years so that was very joyful.
One other thing I want to update people on is my cousin. He is doing so great!! before he would always refuse interaction for anybody but now he is starting to return to his normal self and it makes me so happy to see him laughing and smiling again. Almost the whole wake I was playing with him and trying to keep him laughing so he wouldn't think about his hands and legs, I was pretty efficient. So yea I am ecstatic for him.
Until Next Time.....
Peace Out!
Sunday, November 30, 2008
Events Transpired/Heartbroken
It has been quite awhile since I have brought you guys a new blog and the reasons are a plenty why I haven't. So many things have happened this past week and most of it terrible, things that honestly make me (and made me cry)(anyone who reads this and is like "you're a pussy for crying what kind of man are you?" or something like that, then I feel bad for you because you must not have a soul because when I tell you the kinda shit that has happen to my family over the past week you try and tell me it is not alright to cry). Anyway so most of you know that my Grandfather was in the hospital pretty much all last week and that my parents were cutting there vacation short to be here. So I will just pick up on Monday 24, 2008.
I cant remember where I was or what time it was but I remember my Mom calling me and giving me the awful news that my Grandfather was not doing good and that the doctors gave him about 24 hours to live. A little back story: so for the past year or so my grandpa has been slowly declining in health and we all knew it he was later not able to walk so he had to get a motorized wheel chair and he had been to the hospital a few times before when we thought it could be it for him so going into this stay at the hospital you would like to think you are prepared for the worst, but nothing and I mean nothing can prepare you for the actualization of death. Alright so Tuesday morning we (my dad, mom, and I) went down to the hospital to be with him along with many other family members. He really couldn't talk, the only thing he could really do at that point was breathe, so it wasn't looking good. After awhile there my dad and I had to drive down to my Aunts so he could get his truck so that I could get the car to go to work. I went straight home to get ready when I went in I asked what is the earliest I could leave because of the circumstances and my manager said she would let me know. After a fairly easy night everyone was pretty much gone at around 7:30 and we dont close til 9 so I went up and asked if I could leave and to my delight she said I could so I jumped in my car and raced home to get a shower and change. On my way out I picked up my sister and headed down to the hospital. When we got there we greeted everyone in the room(on another note I have a Big family and we are all really close, we always spend every holiday and every birthday together) Even though we are really close we still have a couple that are around has much as the rest and in our family it is Jason. He hardly ever shows up to anyone's birthdays or anything else, he is just kinda living his life(fairly successful I might add) so it was a pleasant surprise to see him there. For the longest time we waited and talked about past memories and trying to get grandpa to communicate and stay with us. After a couple of food runs with my cousin Danny and his "friend" (girlfriend really even though they deny it) it was getting late and Katie wanted to leave so I opted to take her home and then go back down to the hospital. After I returned and walked in the room everyone was huddled around him beginning to cry so I quickly took my place at his bed side. His breathing had slowed dramatically, it got to the point where he was only taking one gasp of breath per minute so we all just watched intently to see which was gonna be his last. He was so heartbreaking to watch him gasp for air and to fight with all his heart for that next breath, its like his body wanted to give up but his heart wouldn't allow it. At around 2:00am a nurse came in and we asked to check his pulse so she put her fingers on his neck and said she felt something but to be sure she got her stethoscope and checked his chest with everyone staring at her and him we asked as she shook her head no, there was no pulse so at 2:05 am it was official Bernard Hoedebeck was deceased. As it hit everyone like a shockwave from an atomic bomb we all started to cry or ball our eyes out for some. I started thinking about all my childhood memories at my grandparents place and how I would watch Wheel of Fortune and Jeopardy with them, and all the times my dad and I help them out by hurricane proofing their house or building 3 ramps and a platform from scratch for my grandpas scooter to get up into our house. I started really crying but it really hit me when I looked around the room and saw my cousin Danny who when I was young really looked up to as a an older brother. He was crying. And then I looked to my dad who was torn up to see him keep turning around away from the bed with a tissue in his hand. I have known my dad my whole life and I have NEVER EVER seen him shed one tear or even look like he could, my dad has been that really strong personally emotionally and he has never really showed any. So to see him in that state really tore me up inside. I can understand why though because he lost his parents early and he saw my moms parents as his own parents which is why anytime they needed something done he was always there to give a helping hand. So that is one thing that I have had to deal with lately. Want to hear about the second which to me might be worse then my grandpa because I was atleast a little prepared for that but this next thing was so sudden and it happen to the person that I absolutely love more than anyone in my whole family.
That is my cousin Ricky, and it is also him before the accident. Most of dont know but now you will, I got this call Sunday morning from my mom who was again crying so I thought that my grandfather might have passed but no it was not it. I am just gonna copy and paste from earlier blog.
As in the video above you can see he used to be the happiest and cutest hid alive, he soo much fun to around and to play with I LOVE him SOOO much.
After they got back a couple days ago I saw him for the first time in his stroller with bandages wrapped around his legs and his hands were so wrapped that he cant move his fingers and it looks like he is wearing white gloves. It so heartbreaking to see him like that. Also he doesnt have the childish spirit any more it tears me up because any one even trys talking to him all he does is scream for you to go away. He is so miserable and it really hurts me to see him like that I just want him to recover and get that spirit back I am afraid that he will end up a sad and bitter person. Just thinking about it is making me cry, everytime he used to come over or we would be at a family affair he would always call out my name wondering where I was and I would chase him and pick him up and play and when ever he would leave he would give me hugs and kisses but now only turns his head at everyone and no longer smiles. I am done:(
Peace Out...
I cant remember where I was or what time it was but I remember my Mom calling me and giving me the awful news that my Grandfather was not doing good and that the doctors gave him about 24 hours to live. A little back story: so for the past year or so my grandpa has been slowly declining in health and we all knew it he was later not able to walk so he had to get a motorized wheel chair and he had been to the hospital a few times before when we thought it could be it for him so going into this stay at the hospital you would like to think you are prepared for the worst, but nothing and I mean nothing can prepare you for the actualization of death. Alright so Tuesday morning we (my dad, mom, and I) went down to the hospital to be with him along with many other family members. He really couldn't talk, the only thing he could really do at that point was breathe, so it wasn't looking good. After awhile there my dad and I had to drive down to my Aunts so he could get his truck so that I could get the car to go to work. I went straight home to get ready when I went in I asked what is the earliest I could leave because of the circumstances and my manager said she would let me know. After a fairly easy night everyone was pretty much gone at around 7:30 and we dont close til 9 so I went up and asked if I could leave and to my delight she said I could so I jumped in my car and raced home to get a shower and change. On my way out I picked up my sister and headed down to the hospital. When we got there we greeted everyone in the room(on another note I have a Big family and we are all really close, we always spend every holiday and every birthday together) Even though we are really close we still have a couple that are around has much as the rest and in our family it is Jason. He hardly ever shows up to anyone's birthdays or anything else, he is just kinda living his life(fairly successful I might add) so it was a pleasant surprise to see him there. For the longest time we waited and talked about past memories and trying to get grandpa to communicate and stay with us. After a couple of food runs with my cousin Danny and his "friend" (girlfriend really even though they deny it) it was getting late and Katie wanted to leave so I opted to take her home and then go back down to the hospital. After I returned and walked in the room everyone was huddled around him beginning to cry so I quickly took my place at his bed side. His breathing had slowed dramatically, it got to the point where he was only taking one gasp of breath per minute so we all just watched intently to see which was gonna be his last. He was so heartbreaking to watch him gasp for air and to fight with all his heart for that next breath, its like his body wanted to give up but his heart wouldn't allow it. At around 2:00am a nurse came in and we asked to check his pulse so she put her fingers on his neck and said she felt something but to be sure she got her stethoscope and checked his chest with everyone staring at her and him we asked as she shook her head no, there was no pulse so at 2:05 am it was official Bernard Hoedebeck was deceased. As it hit everyone like a shockwave from an atomic bomb we all started to cry or ball our eyes out for some. I started thinking about all my childhood memories at my grandparents place and how I would watch Wheel of Fortune and Jeopardy with them, and all the times my dad and I help them out by hurricane proofing their house or building 3 ramps and a platform from scratch for my grandpas scooter to get up into our house. I started really crying but it really hit me when I looked around the room and saw my cousin Danny who when I was young really looked up to as a an older brother. He was crying. And then I looked to my dad who was torn up to see him keep turning around away from the bed with a tissue in his hand. I have known my dad my whole life and I have NEVER EVER seen him shed one tear or even look like he could, my dad has been that really strong personally emotionally and he has never really showed any. So to see him in that state really tore me up inside. I can understand why though because he lost his parents early and he saw my moms parents as his own parents which is why anytime they needed something done he was always there to give a helping hand. So that is one thing that I have had to deal with lately. Want to hear about the second which to me might be worse then my grandpa because I was atleast a little prepared for that but this next thing was so sudden and it happen to the person that I absolutely love more than anyone in my whole family.
That is my cousin Ricky, and it is also him before the accident. Most of dont know but now you will, I got this call Sunday morning from my mom who was again crying so I thought that my grandfather might have passed but no it was not it. I am just gonna copy and paste from earlier blog.
Saturday night when I had the choice to either go to Jeremy's or my aunts house where my cousin(age 20) was gonna have a bomb fire (he had a lot of phone books to burn) now no offense to Jeremy but I wish with all my heart that I could go back and change my decision (I feel I could have prevented what happened [explanation soon]) So I got to Jeremy's around 10 we kinda just talked and fooled around on the internet (I also gave him a present) before bed I watched the Supernatural episode from two weeks ago (yea I slacked a little) We woke up around 9 to nothing to exciting planned so we again just fooled around online and talked to his mom while she looked at Black Friday ads AGAIN. Then I got the call, my mom called me crying again and I feared the worst that possibly my grandfather had passed, but I actually got worse news. My little cousin who I love 10x more than anybody else in my family (immediate or not) somehow got outside under the "supervision" of my cousin (20 year old) and got to the still burning coals of the fire the night before. I dont know if he fell into or what but he ended up with burns on his hands between his knee and mid shin and a small spot on his back (as I am writing this I am starting to cry [making my title true]) Now I dont know the extent of the burns but he had to be taken to Tampa's Burn Center in a helicopter.
We could ask questions all day like: Why didnt someone throw dirt on the coals to put them out? or Where the fuck was Danny when Ricky got out? But no one person can be blamed for what has happened we just have to hope for as great as a recovery as possible.
As in the video above you can see he used to be the happiest and cutest hid alive, he soo much fun to around and to play with I LOVE him SOOO much.
After they got back a couple days ago I saw him for the first time in his stroller with bandages wrapped around his legs and his hands were so wrapped that he cant move his fingers and it looks like he is wearing white gloves. It so heartbreaking to see him like that. Also he doesnt have the childish spirit any more it tears me up because any one even trys talking to him all he does is scream for you to go away. He is so miserable and it really hurts me to see him like that I just want him to recover and get that spirit back I am afraid that he will end up a sad and bitter person. Just thinking about it is making me cry, everytime he used to come over or we would be at a family affair he would always call out my name wondering where I was and I would chase him and pick him up and play and when ever he would leave he would give me hugs and kisses but now only turns his head at everyone and no longer smiles. I am done:(
Peace Out...
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